This is the continuation of all lessons of SPIRIT and SEXUS, especially lesson 13, in which we talk ablout the meaning of this issue for children and about male and female symtoms, and of lesson 14, which is about the spiritual backround of your embodied 7year cycles. Here, we will explain in greater depths, using exmples of Sabines spiritual analysis and give you a feeling of the deeply influencing meaning of these, so far theoretical, statements.

Your first and second 7year cycles were of great polarity. It was the time of the greatest connection onto your spiritual spheres and soul-home – we could also call it closeness to God. At the same time, you were totally at the mercy of Earth, the body and the pain of the world – we could also call it far away from God. And so your childrens illnesses were dramatic stagings with only one goal: the survival of the soul and the Spirit in the body. For this, they would give over the body into any byttle as long as it seemed promissing. Remember you are spiritual masters, light bearers, trasformers and wanderers between the worlds. Indeed, this was about all or nothing.

If you look at your childhood (and that of your parents, grandparents, neighbours, teachers and other enemies) from this point of view, you will realize that all illnesses, accidents ans fateful circumstances during tis time are nothing else than:

• Pointers toward an imbalance in the life of the parents and the world
• Activation and preparation of your own life-intentions (the masters, who were children temporarily)
• Strengthening of the spiritual powers, you brought with you (from the spiritual family) within the earthly field of counter-forces (of the earthly family)

This lesson is about the issues of the children and their meaning – not of your children, yet your childhood. It’s about:

• Earthing your Spirit during the first three 7year cycles
• The enduring battle between the Spirit of the child and the Spirit of the adult world
• Feelings, wishes and fears
• The relationship with the earthly family
• Symptoms, illnesses and accidents (during the immature childhood)
• Comprehension, redemption, healing and fulfillment (during the mature adulthood)

In this lesson, too, we have put you pointers for opening, redemption and fulfilment of your tough path at the end of each chapter or symptom.

Do not underestimate the meaning of the exact, yet emotionless observation and relextion of that what was. Look from the outside as if it was a movie. Don’t underestimate the written notes and communications with yourselves. Take time for this self-work, this self-realisation and self-authorisation.

Don’t underestimate the power of acceptance, the deep agreement of all events as well as the power of forgiveness and letting go, the power of your new decisions and of the sleep-for-healing.

Only turn toward the aspects, which find the most resonance with you in the here and now, trigger you the most. These are the switches within you, which want to be tuned here ans now. However, also look at what brings up resistance or fear.

And of course, you don’t have to have suffered from all these illnesses or symptoms – or totally different ones. Yet still, you will find valuable pionters as to what pained you – and was pained by you. As not only did your symptoms and illnesses pain you but you pained them beyond all measure ans time as you did not let them go. Just finish this game now, let them go!


Children come as emissaries and ..... of Spirit, as wegbereiter for a New Time. They come for the rejuvenation in soul and Spirit of their parents and the world, as spiritual teachers and signs, as they carry the Spirit inside, which has tired and fallen asleep in the bodies of the parents. Children can teach their parents wisdom at the heart level and give them power. Children can answer questions the parents have.

Yet the parents believe that they hold the answers to the questions of the children. What an error!
If the parents now stamp the children with their taken over and degenerated patterns, early conflict emerges inside the body of the child. Exactly this happened during the last millennia – according to plan. Yet now, the leaf turns. We talk here especialy about the generation of the light bearers, which we mention in lesson 3 and in the booklet „Turn Of Time“. In your childhood ilnesses shows the force of the renerwer (Neuerer), who must earth himself within a field of opposing forces, grow roots, and also durchsetzen his own being, which must bear fruit and crown.


With childhood illnesses it is mostly the skin which is affected – the meaning is always the break through of something new. Something old breaks from the outside onto the inside – the explosive life-force of the new world. A spirituel-bodily step of evolotion is performed and leads to immediate battle: childhood illnesses are almost always infections.

The descended Spirit does not shy away from tunring it’s young, soft and valnerable body into a battle field in order to survive as a soul and to push through it’s intentions. These are the anstehenden conflicts of the here and now between heaven and Earth, which challenge the child as well as the parents to grow and decide. When the outside, erziehenrische pressure too much, the illness breakes the boundary, the skin, from the inside. This is about unbridled joy in contact and conflict (infection). It is about crossing boundaries in every encounter and possibility and to stride ahead – which is a horror vision fort he old world that wants to rest from the uneasiness of the time.


Each childhood illness shows in a spezial way a conflict and there are at least two levels of view: First that of the stuck forces of the parents, which are taken on by the child and subsequently voiced and second, the specific abilities and powers, the child (the Spirit entity) brought with it down to Earth. These have remained undetected during childhood and for many years after that. During the adult years, people have to figure out who they are by themselves as they don’t receive help from outside, apart from those encoded messages of illnesses, accidents and fateful situations, which we are giving you here. Will you know and fulfill yourself!


THe old Piecean Age and the new Aquarian age build the body of the child and mix their energies in it. This leads to painful experiences, to a double- and manyfold identity. This may show up later in a heathly puberty, yet also in sick multiple personality syndromes and borderline sicknesses. There is anyway a healthy threefold identity within you: the ego and it’s body, the soul with it’s feelings and the Spirit with it’s intelligence. They come from very different origins, have different points of view, needs and ways of perception, which want to be brought into a balance.

As Spirit, it is your intention and as an evolving human it is your task to become one with these three beings of youtrself. The very different needs and wisdoms of body, soul and spirit wish to find a balance. Very many levels of cosciousness of generations want to merge within you into an new consciousness. No generation has the same consciousness than the previous or the following. None experiences pain and joy in the same way as the others. No child is able to deeply understand their parents – and vice versa. You came here to unify the very different energies of the ages and to adjust to the permanently chaging circumstances and demands fluently and to allem gerecht werden – without giving up yourselves.

Indeed, this is a tremendous task and service, which is unparalleled in the cosmos, especially as all this happens within a field of subconsciusness, blindness and seeming lack of perspective.

Become more and more conscious of these multidimensionality of your life. Alone through this, you will be taken by a huge wave of relaxation and regeneration and carried ahead.

In the kind of your childhood illnesses and conflicts, your very specific spiritual abilities, talents and intentios are shown, which were unacknowledged this far. Now, during your adult years, you have to recognize who you are by yourselves, as you didn’t get help from the outside in your childhood nor later when you were grown up. The insight happens during the refelction of the symptoms and their opposites.


The skin is on the one hand the border between inside and outside, on the other hand the connection of these two worlds. It is a contact and conflict zone. The being of the skin is male and female – being closed off, refusal, border protection and at the same time opening, devotion and free flowing. It is density and unnachgibigkeit as well as gentleness and tenderness.

Windpocken are itchy, they come in attacks and spread Ausschlag: blisters, pustules and crusts. They show the breaktrough of ones own being, which has to durchsetzen from the inside out against a ahrened membrane on the skin, which thretens to suffocate it. This membrane is built by the tight energy field of the parents, who themselves have taken on pain- and copmulsion-crustas of their fore-bearers and also through the own childish retreat into itself, the closing itself off from the outside.

The child has been put in it’s place, it doesn’t go beyond, even though the inner desire to do this is great. It tries to battle the fight, which it gave up o the outside, on the inner levels and turns into the heckenschütze of ist onw skin and liveliness.

Conflict between the old, the stuck and the new, flowing on the level of the skin, at the border of young live. At the same time there is a dance between aggression and joy, between conflict and contact, between hardness and toughness. The same is happening in the eyes: The new insight of the child into the old view of the world of the parents leads to a battle at the surface of the mirror of the soul. The eyes of the child see finer than the eyes of the parents, because they are still connected to the inner eyes. Yet the rough, by fear and doubt murky sight of the adults dominates and inflames the sight and eyes of the child.

The new wants to break through in order to change and shift the old: the divine child wants to heal and redeem the pain and crusts of the parents, grandparents and of human society. It isn’t a battle between the child and the parents, it is a battle between times, spaces and dimesions and elements. This battle however does not aim at the defeat of the one and the victory of the other, it is not a battle against but for life – with the will for mergence of all parties involved.

At the body border „skin“ clash the unconditional need for contact of the child from the inside and the lack of contact of the old world, the tenderness from the inside and the roughness from the outside, the childish-gentle feeling from the inside and the grown up rigid thining and acting from the outside.

Refelction: For you, it is about opening your own inner boundaries, which you yourself brought with you into this life. Of course, you are still able to do this now, as the insight into the context has matured within you. Once you have opend your own inner border, you will be empowered to open the next ones: The borders of your earthly family and the borders of your human family – of society – massconsciousness.


The inner force, which we described under Masern, is enforced here. THe inner aggresively pushes onto the outside. This shwos how urgent the change of feeling- and thought-habits has become. This aims at the parents during childhood and later at yourself.


The conflict, which we described under Masern shifts to the ears. The child does not want to hear any more. It does neither want to allow sounds nor words of the world, does not want to listen as it deeply senes the untruth of the adult words. The conlict now shows in the flow of the saliva, a part of the feminine life-water, which free flow turns into a trickle. The retreat of the child equals its need of the soul for inner quiet in the midst of the outer storm. Yeti t is a new retreat of the child from the adults, which widersprechen the need of the childs soul for confrontation. The soul wants to speak, confront itself, argue – give what it has to and demand, too.

The willingness for conflict and confrontation are important for survival, as it leads into the balance of the forces and into one’s own centre. Here reigns the conflict between male dominance and female Gehorsam, between patriarchat of the piecean age, which brought with it a hierarchy, control and rigidity of societal structure as well as a total degenertated male dominance and the pioneers of the aquarian age, which brought compassion, free flowing of forces and a certain lack of structures.

This female Gehorsam is just as degeneraded as the male dominance. These forces reign inside the marriages of the last centuries and want to be broken by the soul of the child indeed. Yet, the societal ego-dominance of the parents is strong and the time of change far away.

Refletion: Decide to inwardly reslove the fatherly and motherly world. Honour your parents for what they were and are. Accept their barriers of consciousness and release any guilt from your life – wether you look for it in yourself or them.

Decide to open up to your masculine and feminine powers and the conflict between them. Take up the conection to your spirutual brothers and sisters again, which you allowed to tear after your birth, speak with them again. Allow them to help you with your next steps.


At the level of the body it is the lungs, at the level of the soul it is contact, communication and freedom. Mostly at night there comes a dry, not solving and with that not releasing cough. Several bellowing cough Stösse combined with the typical keuchendem in-breath merge into salven with the character of attacts. These attacks can increase into Atemnot, cramps and brain heamorrages. The aggressive force tries during childhood to break through. Here an example form a consultation:


Very early you began to realize your life-plan. In order to release the very ridgid patrichralische family-system, into which you incarnated, you brought quite a portion of joyful aggressive force into your life. You wanted to develop it right at the beginning to be able to stand up to the martial, hardened aggreaasions of mankind. The lung is affected, the central organ of each communication as well as of the inner and outer freedom. These aspects of communicationa nd freedom had fallen into a total rigour during the old time.

Keuchhusten is one of the first aggressive outbreakes of a child against ist parents. It aims at their rigour, their opening, insight and evolution. On the one hand you took their solidified, hidden aggressive forces onto you in oder to once release them, on the other hand did your parents have the possibility to open themselves with the insight of your Keuchhuseten. Yet this ability for opening and insight was not at their disposal at that time. It was outside of their consciousness. And so you made their problem yours and now it is your resposibility to release it.


It is important to acknowledge aggression as a necessary (lebenswichtig) part of human existance, as a root-force of the embodied joy of Spirit on earth. We could also call it joy of living, which indeed differs from your various kinds of joy, which you have on some days and not on others. This joy of the child, of Christ, the inauguated, needs to helped to break through, to flow freely. At this time, it is about the courage to bring one’s own innermost out into a seemingly totally strange, even feindliche world. It is about the courage to take the first step forward when all others stand still or walk backward. During this, seemingly sorrow filled time of childhood, a inner stance can develop, which takes on life full of joy and power u. Einsatz.

Yet, the opposite can also happen: The supression of the natural iner aggressive force can become life-treatening as it produces immense pressure in soul and body, which finds it’s own pathways, i fit is not released by free will. First this will show in inner battles and cramps in one’s own body and later in outer battles and cramps in the world.

The origin of all illness, sorrow, siechen and dying, yes even the origin of your complete health-industry (or better: illness-industry), your insurance- and pension colosses as well as your media- and leisure-industies, which is supposed to give you relief and distraction without ever truly achieveing it, is found in the supression of your early childhood aggressive forces.

And of course, you also find here the origin of all violence on Earth – be it political legitimate (violence and war) or be it criminal (homicide), mad (amok) or ethical (hatred, revenge, helplessness). Because to what feelings, thoughts and decisions would a society be able, which has supressed ist joy and aggression in such a way?


The increase and ascend of the aggressive energy inside yourself turns into an explosion of joy and light as soon as you decide for it, as always the forces of your body-spirit have followed your will. Sense the clear with life-force bubbling air after a hefty thunder storm.

Be ready to accept the aggressions with their dark and nightly as well with their light, dayly sides. They are a part of your Durchsetzung and self-Behautptung, just like spring with ist ausschlagend trees and hüllensprengenden buds. In you, too, is the detonation force of spring once the rigour of winter is released.

Go back once more in your inner journeys to the time of your first years of life, into the home of your parents and to them. Be ready to feel their pain and together with your own to bring it in the light here and now. Just by deciding, it happens.

Accept aggression as a changing force an begin to trust in it, when you allow it to flow freely in your life and breathe it, when you accept it in your life with all your heart and let go of all stuck aggression dross in your life.

Expand your field of communication, widen it from the earthly into the spiritual realms.


Affected are the lymphatic nodes, which are also called the police force of the body, the liver, your life-cross world (Sexus) and Religio (Spirit), as well as the Milz, the vital filter of your life-force, a receiving organ and transformer of the cosmic light. All three organs are stategically important points. To attack them could mean to prematurally end the bodily life. The attack comes from the inside. It reacts to an outward war siuation, yet the small warrior, the child, is not yet able to react to the outside stimuli other than with an illness. It points the weapons at itself.

Inner and outer forces collide with each other. The inner forces are the flowing aggressions of the child, the descended Spirit being, and the outer forces are the solidified aggressions of the parents and surroundings. We could also say: the inner, joyful, electrical, renewing aggression (YES) collides with the outer, aggtessive magnetic, old aggression (NO).

The control- and Eingriff-system of the body is hugely magnified, because and whilst the question after the meaning of life becomes acute: All or Nothing, Self-authorisation or supression (Unterordnung), victim or creator, death or resurrection. Spirit demands ist life-measure, ist intention, ist value and offenbarung. In the field of outer circumstances it becomes important to store and build own life-force. The fever shows the general mobilisation of the complete inner bodily and soul defences.


Then and today, you should face the healing battle with the outer challenges. Inner battles are necessary and unavoidable. Do them with all devotion and joy and enthusiasm. Face in this way all of the central issues of your life.

Battle does not mean: desperately fighting against what comes from the outside, to turn away and to shoot at oneself or the other – this, you did long enough. Battle means simply: to allow all forces and counter forces within, to leave them the one’s own body and soul for a time as a battle field, to observe them in their fight and to not get involved in it, neither with judgement nor mediation. Victory will be on both sides, as this fight wants the whole life.

Ist better to face the questions of your life, your evaluations and measure, than with the hormonal controll and Eingreif Truppen of your body. Those have to only step into their duty and attack when you neglect your own joy-battle.

Exercise the open auseinandersetzung and the open battle within yourself, allow the current of live energy and all forces to flow freely – trust them.


Get ready to now coss those borders, you could not cross as a child as the outer forces were too great and which you didn’t want to cross during your adult years as you had become lazy. The counter forces from your childhood are no longer there. They can no longer hinder you to take steps to mature. Question those boundaries, which you have set yourself during your childhood and in the following times. Decide to let them go now.

Decide now to open the borders for your own being and new energy and to let them break through in your life.

These borders are about your contact- and conflict-joy coupled with an adequat Umgang with your aggressions and to express those early. Aggresive energy is a part of the human forces for growth. It is grundsätzlich positive and just as valuable as joy. Aggresive energy has to be released as otherwise it turns against you and supresses the female forces. Aggression is one of the two forces in the balance of the whole.

Healing aggresion is only possible if you are durchdrungen by self-love and self-respect. Take into consideration that aggression and love and aggression and tenderness are by no means widersprüche. To the contrary, a healthy aggressive outbreak without unangemessene remorse clears the body and the feeling-spaces just as much as a thunderstorm the air and the land.

By expressing your aggressions joyful (!!!) to the outside, a tremendous inner cleansing is happening and tenderness can emerge and grow – inside of you as well as in your enemy and Gegenüber. Do not fear the loss of control or entgleisung. When you decide for this opening, you are autimatically surrounded by light spirit beings, which keep any situation under their protection.

Decide the total inner Loslösung letting go from the parental world and dive into your love-force of your heart-space. Look frm here at your childhood and send your grown-up, woken up love-force into the scenes.

Be ready to cry – for days and weeks, whenever IT wants to cry within you: allow tears of sorrow and joy to rain onto the burned earth. Be a Klageweib, an aquarius and a Täufer.

Allow pain and sorrow, allow to to rise today, Jahrzehnte after the peak of the pain.

Allow forgiveness and self-forgiveness and the unredeemed feelings of the soul of your childhood to wake up here and now, to rise and to get strong, indeed!

Declare your deep acceptance with your birth into this live and with your earthly body. Accept your life and your body in love. Nurture them with respect and joy. This is how stuck structueres get solved.

Learn to say NO, if you could not do this so far. A NO toward others is often a YES toward yourself – and what is a yes for you, helps the others as well.

See also: The series of booklets Crystal Edition, especially booklet 10: „ Rise into my light“ and the meditations of the previous lessons.


Edited excerpts fom Spiritual analysis and the „true life“



You expressed a masive aggressive potential with your broken appendix in your second 7year cycle. The apendix is an organ of grey Vorzeit, a kind of defence Einrichtung of the shadow realms. Nowadays it only has the function to to store primal aggressions and to keep them until they are redeemed. This intent lies within the first two 7year cycles of the embodyment of Spirit. During this threefold time, which we talk about in lesson 3, it is all about to let the darkness of the world flow up and the light of the Spirit down – through your bodies. And do appendix problems are widely spread and inflammations of this organ come in masses. The appendix is a bridge for the release of very old war- and blood-thirst and revenge-patterns. Not only you as a whole person can receive energies, transform and redeem them, yet also each single organ of your body.

These rising energies have nothing to do with old personal guilt, yet it is a spiritual potential of violence, which accumulated on earth for many millennia and therefore einbezieht generations of your family. Here reign fear, pain, sorrow and dependance, guilt and Minderwert, control and poverty – all these interwoven with love and harmony and held on. You took on this love-horror package to release it one day.

Yet here also shows your personal problem: The Zurückhaltung and supression of y

The outer reasons of the supression of your inner forces lie in the frame of your family and so
Ietal structure: a little girl has to be such and such – and not different! You have been within very tight boundaries very early on – lovingly gestutzt, tamed and bestimmt, and your overly great spiritual joy and female liveliness could not grow. Imprisoned within a tight body, they met their root-forces, the aggressions, which were not allowed to be expressed either. One of the inner wars, developing out of this, was the war against your appendix.

Another result of your fremdbestimmung is you unability to remember your childhood and the feelings and wishes during that time. You cannot remember because at that time you have not been yourself. Even though, today you may seem small, gentle and zerbrechlich, you also have a mighty grown warrior for life within you, who wants to be acknowledged.

See also inflammation of the appendix page


With your heart go back once again into your childhood, realise the situation with the break of the appendix without any emotion. Decide to release all forces from your life, which influenced you at that time – with love. If you decide this with all your heart, this is enough to make this happen.

Let go of the people of your earthly family and your held-on relationships to them – with love. Be ready to consciously and willingly release any worry, manipulation, fear and control over them, as these pairs are untrennbar connected.


There are several good resaons when a human forgets his childhood. The spiritual reasons lie in your primal intent, to make your way here on Earth mosty independent from your earthly family. A earthly reason lies in the inner and outer supression of your life-force through einschnürend harmony or massive violence Einwirkung.

In your case the spiritual intent backfired, meaning your anbindung onto your earthy family has become massive and all emcompassing, that this made you forget yourself to this day. Affenliebe this is also called. This a wonderful example that human love is able to fortzerren from yourself in a way, violence and fremdbestimmung could never do.

The earthly reason of your forgetting was then the meaning of your verwurzelung of your spiritual freizügigkeit and ungebundenheit within the bodily space. Supression and einschnürende harmony were the root forces, in which dark ground you wanrted to mature. Yet, as we see it thousandfold at this time: even masters of the high spaces of consciousness can get stuck for a long time in the swamp of the earthly love-darkness.


In a deep relaxation and meditation, move into your heart and from there go back to the time of your birth. Look around here and allow all brothers and sisters, which you have left behind then to emerge here and now. Allow yourself to hear and see them. Simply imagine it or let such a story emerge within you. Exchange with them and allow some time for this.

Finally, you move on together through your first ten years on Earth. Allow that different images emerge than what you could imagine. Take this journey often and allow each time for different pictures to emerge, just as if you have had hundrets of different childhoods in this life – and indeed, you did.

It is also possible to decide to take this trip through your childhood as a dream journey during your nightly sleep. Just by deciding, it happens. Allow yourself many days and weeks for these journeys.

The meaning of these trips lies in the clearing of your first years, in a cleansing of the dross and pain as well as the hamonising of your Earth-7year cycles with the spiritual life-fields. A psychic memeory may awaken, yet this is not what this is all about, yet your total Spirit-soul-physical arrival in the here and now is the point.

Don’t make a great ritual out of this, only breathe every night when you go to sleep from your heart to the point of your birth, in order to have all night for the journey. It is possible that you bring stuff from the night into your waking conscious – or not. Don’t let that matter. Repeat this journey as often as you like. You will know when it is enough.



The illnesses of your childhood lie in the second 7year cycle. This shows that your conflicts are of masculine nature and that in resonance you took on the conflicts of your father. You couldn’t change your father. But now, you can turn to your own soul-conflict concerning our male nature. It is about freeing your masculine soul-forces – will, courage, durchsetzungskraft, entschlossenheit, aggression, creative force – which are within you in great measure, to give them space and to bring them into a positive and powerful motion. Only by doing this, your strong, female Marian forces can live and express themselves.

You spent your first decades to develop your feminine forces and to negelct the masculine ones. The feminine onces are ausgeprägt, yet they have not yet grown up as the masculine counter force is missing still. They lie within areas, which are still veiled to you, those of playing and feeling, the free and fine arts and in deep inner spaces of soul and spirit in your life. These spaces are still veiled because your male forces have not unearthed and opened them – this is their task and ability.

Your feminine aspects of feeling, playing and painting didn’t have any importance in the human society so far. They were of no value, „bread-less“ and of little meaning. The outer male societal forces negated them. Your inner masculine forces took on these patterns and became ill and deperssed through doing so. They need liberation. Your feminine powers, which stayed a child are helpless by themselves. They need to merge with the masculine powers to become strong and expressive. Your most important issue right now is to accept your masculine soul-forces. The feminine ones will then flow by themselves.

You have chosen a childhood, in which amongst many sisters, there was no relationship to a father or brother, yes even at school there were only girls. This pattern continued till today in your unfulfilled search for a fulfilling relationship. How can this work on the outside if there is no fulfilled inner relationship? You decided to spend your first years in a masculine isolation in order to let the feminine potentials grow without being interrupted or watered down too early. This concentration was easy during the first seven years: the almost free of men home and the retreat with the dolls gave the space.

In the second 7year cycle this retreat took on active forms of refusal. The illnesses allowed you to stay away from school, yet showed also the inner conflict, which schwelen between your non-reachable father and your own refused masculine powers. This several months taking school refusal shows your inner Entschlossenheit and readiness to battle with the societal patriarchat – there your masculine forces flashed through.

Lack of contact, resusal and inner retreat make it possible for the child to explore and experience it’s own soul-forces and needs. In this way, the own sensitivity, the unspeakable and the inner search for the self finds it’s necessary space and can evolve. The child is not able to understand this right away, yet it feels the depth of the various levels of life within itself, which search for expression, life and power. Whilst reading, you may feel that there is a wise and infinitely loving plan, which was there right from the beginning and is indeed not gone wrong, however despaired you may be in the moment.


The conlict spread into the rachen and neck-area. On the one hand, you no longer want to just swallow anything, which is given to you from the outside, especially the life-patterns of your partens. On the other hand, you are undecided weather to open your mouth and to state clearly what it is you want. This would be corresponding to your inner male forces.

This not fought battle between you and society shifts. It wütet now between your inner, which wants to say something and your mouth, which stays closed. It’s a fight between the masculine speaking and the feminine swallowing. It inflames exactly at the crossover at the tightest and most sensitive spot – the neck. The more urgent a decision is needed, the more often the conflict will be repeated. The tonsild can be removed, but that does not solve the inner conflict. It will express itself after an OP just as well, even if on other parts of the body.


It is of great importance to learn to say NO! Are you able to do this today? If not, start to excercise immediately to say NO – and to release stuck aggressions.

See also the above reflection to the issue „Aggression“.


Loss of the peers. Stiff atmosphere in the city and at school. Adding to that, only girls in the same class. With 11 refusla to go to school for several months.

The removal from the gentle, feminine country into a ridgid, masculine city is like the shift from the mother- to the father-bond. The early loss of the first peers ( this principle repeats itself in the profession) shows the need of the soul, to retreat into ist own worlds and to ever again leave the experiences it just passed through.The soul doens’t want to get stuck, wants to stay flexible and not grow roots anywhere, apart from within itself.

The sole girl-class makes it once again impossible for you to experience male energy in the outside world. At the inner levels, this means yet another spirit-led protection of your own male energies, which are supposed to be brooding a little while longer in order to present themselves one day in a non-resonant form. A being, which is through and through feminine, which has very strong masculine forces, which still want to flourish (life-task), is not served well with outer male forces during the first years of life. The danger here would lie in an orientation on the old male masculinity, which would disturb the inner new feminine masculinity. Therefore such encounters are not planned on Earth at all. one’s own inner male forces begin to wish to surface from the second 7year cycle, which at first meets with resistance ( here: brain erschütterung with 9). Resistance however is the ground, in which the plant slowly matures and in balance happens.

The refusal to go to school shows a strong resolve, one’s own head, one’s own will, the very clear idea what you want and what not. These are powerful, if not accepted, male energies, which come to the forefront and hold feasible powers. In this sense you chose the life of a hermit amongst mankind, who lets his powers ripen and mature in the hidden.


The birth into the human realms is accompanied by the temporary loss of the divine nature. Here manifest in the inside the first fears, an expression of this primal split between Spirit and body. Yet the turn away from God during childhood is necessary in order to bring the physical body into flourishion as a tool of Spirit.

A light and airy being comes down to embody the primal element of joy and free flowing on Earth – the dance of life. The counterforces are erathly heaviness, human joylessness and eidgenösische Verschlossenheit. Joy is an element of air and of the cosmic ether, a breath of your spiritual lungs, which wishes to flow in exchange with the humans.

For that, it needs the communication with your divine self. It experienced with the birth ist first battle and cramp with the desity of Earth. The inflammation of the lungs shows the war, which reigned already early bewteen your young, divine Spirit and the old earthly Spirit of your parents. It is a war, you lead against them - within yourself. At the same time it is your own battle as with your birth you have taken on these old martial energies of your parents and fore-bearers and now carry both patterns within you.

Cosmic lightness, joy and openness are at this time on Earth highly effective healing- and redeeming remedies. You came to bring these to mankind. However, if you want to radiate them on Earth, you have to first mature these forces inside of your body – exactly in those areas where there is no joy, no lightness and no openness. Exactly there, you can grow your roots and mature into a huge, powerful life-tree. Exactly there, you can experience their specific misery, which you wish to shift, and exactly there, you can later drop the ripe fruit, with which you want to nourish them. And so, you chose exactly this field. You will only heal yourself by totally accepting here and now all chose.

Reflection: declare NOW deeply your agreement with your birth into this life and with your earthly body. Accept your body in love (each single pound!). Only in this way are stuck structures released.

13 years old – back pain, often with bewegungssperre, yearly and also more frequent

With the spiritual christening at 14, the deep inner quest and longing after the true parents and home beginns. In the gown body, soul and Spirit are beginning to awaken and to rattle the bars of ist prison.

To feel alien inside one’s own body, to be nowhere at home – schon gar nicht at the earthy family, wanting to do things which seem unrealistic, to refuse notorically everything, earthly life has to offer – these are signs of puberty, the first great irritation in the meeting of body and Spirit, of human and God.

The back stands for inner sincerity and being true to yourself, your higher self. Your age points toward a conection to your fathe, who’s inner szance and responsibility for others you took on. It is necessary to be true to yourself when the surrounding people think and feel different from you. Everybody is telling you what you must and mustn’t do, what is right and wrong, good and bad. Your attention and inner openness are great and unredeemed. They bend you in all possible directions – bend your back bone. Your gentle, aufmerksam and gehorsam being allows all others to cross your boundaries hemmungslos and get too close to you.

Your alignement between your earthly and divine self is already severely disturbed at the age of 13. The inability to move shows that your back and spine, even your whole body, receive not enough nourishment from your own relams, too little YES to yourself, too little cosmic joy, openness and free flowing, too little dance around your own spinal column, the own life-axis. Up to this point, you adapted so much to the old world that there is the danger of rigour. This points to a great inner power, which no doubt is there, if verschüttet, and at the same time at a drastic spiritual demand for your awakening.

Reflection: Even though this is in the past, the problem remains and has even solidified. And always you can solve it – completely. Be true to yourself. Think, feel and do what is yours and don’t allow others to prevent you from doing this.

Nobody needs your pitty. Recognise that all humans walk a difficult path, that all are more or less stuck, that none of them knows themselves truly, geschwiege denn you. Out of this reason, nobody can truly advice you. The best adviser is your divine Spirit. It gets strong when you allow it to flow into you via the spinal column and live inside your heart.

Invite it consciously, welcome it in your life. Dance with it your life-dance.

Leitsatz: „ I am secure by being true to myself. I Am straight and open within my self. I receive my divine self now fully aware and with joy.“


Based on during childhood experienced outer stagnation and closed offness in the Elternhaus and in Umgebung, a heaviness manifested in your soul, to be a prison for the inner lightness. This was allowed to happen as there was no heart-desicion for lightness this far.

Ther was no decision in the heart and so a bleierne tiredness placed itself like a tuch from here all over the body, a coma of the soul, a vital-energetic depression. In the head, your mind decides for what it knows: heaviness and Unfreiheit. And so the gate in the skull will always stay closed and all as- and decending energy flows will collide with this closed gate and cause pain, simply because they cannot flow. When the heart and the upper gate of the ego are closed, the lower gate at the pelvic floor can also not be open. Therefore, the whole body-chamber is separated from the legs. Those are not nourished by spiritual-soul food and yet have to keep carrying the ever heavier body. In this way, the path of the legs becomes troublesome and perspectiveless.

The feet are the furthest away from the head and the sky. They are the counter parts the the head, yet they carry the weight of all decisions, which the head took or didn’t take. They endure the pressure which come from above and resist the pressure of the heaviness of earth. They are the furthest away from the spiritual centre of nourishment, they are the smallest and carry the most.

At the same time the pressure, under which the feet are, effects the body in return. They hold the reflex points of the whole body. Are the feet under pressure, the whole body will be soon as well. The bleierne tierdness is a sign of this rückkopplung.

Reflection: You can decide on y daily basis, which part of the way you wish to walk next, if it it will be easier or more difficult, even or steil, with or without obstacles and barriers. These decisions are always expressions of your inner and the outer forces, your light and dark energies, or the wrestling between them. Often, you decide against yourself when negative forces like fear, doubt and guilt dominate.

Move into your heart and journey ( as we have already described) to the point of your birth. Meet your brothers and sisters of the spiritual realms and take together with them this trip into the child’s 7year cycles. Joirney often – again and again. Collect your impressions, memories and experiences from these realms and allow your earthly-bodily childhood now gerntly to let go (resolve) of your life.

Do no longer take dsisions under pressure, in fear and doubt. If a decision is to be made, take care to get into a situation of deep inner peace. Move into your heart ad ask how it would decide.

The seed of the divine spirit is in your head, in the pineal gland. Zirbel In a meditation, you may also go there and ask. It would always decide for lightness and joy.

The appendix is a bodily secondary organ, which spiritual function makes itself known in the physical. It stores information of the earthly primal past and keeps them ready for the outbreak or the shift. These primal information’s are forces of the 1. and 2. dimensions of your planet, as we described in the booklets 7 „ At the house of the father“ and in „The journey through the twelve dimensions“: the very first root-forces of love, joy and will, the reptile and dinosaur experiences. And so, there are not your own energies and experiences in your appendix, yet those of Earth, of Fauna and Flora from grey primal times. Primal experiences and –feelings have always permeated Earth and her aura and have therefore been passed onto each human with their birth. And so you find in your appendix not only the primal past of Earth yet also that of the generations of your earthly family and that of the whole of mankind.

The descended master sets up its child-body during the first two 7-year cycles for its future life and acting. It activates all crystals, information’s and energies, it wishes to express in this life, as well as this point of crystallisation of the shadow realm, which guards a part of the chaos-forces of Earths history. It takes on, next to its own descended energies, also a large part of the primal forces of Earth. The appendix is the backmost battle- and defence-bastion of the large intestine, a dead end, a dead end of holding-on, out of which there is no escaping – except through giving up all fight, the putting down of the swords, the letting go in the light, the transformation out of a crystalline heart.

An appendicitis emerges when the child itself suffers under chaotic and suppressed aggressive energies during this time. Then, the defence mechanism of the childish underworld goes into a new war and the earthly primal-matter in the appendix is able to get inflamed. Indeed is the inner stance of the parents, teachers, politicians and priests at the end of the dark times not unlike the reptile forces of the beginning.

This spirit-led conflict in the physical underworld confronts the child with the borderline between innocent childhood and martial adulthood and allows exactly there the master inside the child to mature, who takes these two realms inside and merges them. The shadow realm breaks into the every day world and suppressed aggressions break open in order to be redeemed and to be changed into crystalline matter. Indeed, you are able to do this.

Reflection: Own the dead end street, your parents fought in and you still do today. Write down which of their habits, views and decisions you didn’t like – and which of them you subconsciously took on and carried out till today. Accept them deeply to allow them to go. Know this: you cannot let go of anything, which you haven’t fully accepted before.

Know that your light heart and loving will are stronger than all dark underworlds. Lovingly and consciously face the shadows, the dark beings. Pull into the daylight that, which was oppressed and pushed down and open your inner child the path into the adult world.

Accept the dark being within you and make peace with the dark sister (the dark brother) within you.


The bladder is a sensitive organ, which has to carry a huge pressure. It really is an organ of letting go old dross and tears, yet you use it more as an organ of holding on. It is the storage of the soul-water, which should be emptied regularly. However, this rarely happened during your recent ages. Pain is fire-energy and tears or urine is water-energy. Both energies flow through biochemical and electrolytic vessels and processes. They turn into highly active acids, which mutate your bladders into pressure kettles.

The bladder of a child doesn’t only store it’s own pain-water, yet also that of it’s parents, grandparents and of all generations, which lived before. The master within the child takes on their not released tears and acids into it’s own body – for this it came.

Yet there is another point. The kidneys of the child stand for the parents: the right kidney for the father, the left one for the mother. Mother-kidney and father-kidney give their energies via the ureter down to the bladder-child, who disposes all poison and acids from aggression, pain and the need to control. The child takes on the evolutionary echelon from parents and grandparents with it’s birth. This also happens with the organism of the body. Therefore the kidney and bladder symptoms of the child go conform with the problems, which the parents have with themselves and each other.

This is the battlefield of conflict, the war about letting go or holding on. The urinating is the letting go, the letting flow of the long overdue pain of the soul. Because it has been held on for so long, it turned into fermentation and sharpness. Now, the burning pain forces you to go to the toilet, the burning need to let go of the soul-pain. Urinating is a crying of the lower part of the body, in this case with pain and pressure. Subconsciously, you learned not to let go, not to relax, because your parents didn’t either. And so your body started to put pressure onto the bladder, which always wanted to let go and relax.

As the firstborn child, you have the total willingness to take upon you the pressure and pain of the soul of your parents. Meanwhile, you are doing the same with your husband and your children. This is ok, if there wasn’t a small blemish: You don’t release the pressure.

Reflection : You cannot redeem another by taking on their soul-pain and unreleased soul-aspects and carry them on, yet only by letting each one be as they are and open up completely in order that everything can flow away, which you held and carried for decades.

Turn toward you and cry many days and weeks whenever it comes. With that, you let go of the dramatic and self-destructive attachment onto those, you love. They become free also and can solve their problems themselves as they are masters and divine Spirits, too.

This relieves you – and allows them to grow. You can only help them by your own growth and your own maturity.

Realize the pressure of the soul, you were under as a child, and check how much of that is still there today. Back then, the pressure came form others, today, you do it yourself. Take another decision.

Recognize the urgency of letting go of the soul-dross and perceive in as much you still burn to leave it behind you. Be ready to release the pressure on a spirit-soul level. Feel your own burning needs and satisfy them instead of taking on pressure from others. Allow the soul and the soul water to flow freely on all levels.


Let’s take a little digression to the kidneys. We use a spiritual analysis, which was done for a ca. 40 year old man. His symptom was a metabolic weakness of the kidneys.

In the kidneys reign the forces between the poles of duality and the poles of heaven and Earth:

• Feeling and thinking, male and female, acids and minerals (alkalines),
• Stagnation and motion, light and dark, Spirit and body, birth and dead,
• Holding on and letting go, past and future, father and mother.

The kidneys are the most multilayered and complex organs as here, many threads and energies of your life come together, develop and shift – or get stuck. They unify the light and dark pole just as much as the cosmic and earthly one. Here, you find your mother and father as the central rescue instance, which performs huge activities for the sustainment of your body during times of fear, shock and stress.

In the adrenal glands sit the intervention troops, which get active in the moments when your human will subconsciously pushes predatory elements (thought-acids and feeling-poisons) into your body. Here is the deciding scale, which shows not only all imbalances between your many life levels, yet also reacts to them instantly by releasing hormones.

You unify both poles of duality in a large degree within you: the male one (activity, clarity, might, courage, assertiveness) – the warrior – and the female (passivity, intuition, devotion, compassion and being without resistance) – the healer and priest. To journey and mediate between these two worlds and bring them closer to each other is one of the most noble spiritual tasks on Earth. However, for this, you must be at home in both of these worlds. Your inner change during those recent years is quite obviously directed at the arrival within your feminine power ( note: applies in the upper case to the masculine power)

Your earthly parents are mirrored in the kidneys. The left kidney pulses in the field of the mother, the right in that of the father. Subconsciously and vital-energetically, you still orient yourself on your mother and father, who’s forces pulsate within you since the first two 7-year cycles. The femininity of your mother is just as uni-polar as the masculinity of your father. Your mother has not redeemed her masculine powers (clarity and assertiveness) just as your father didn’t redeem his feminine powers (intuition and humility).

To the extend of their communication with each other und themselves, your kidneys, too, communicate amongst themselves and with you. This applies as long as you have still demands and needs onto them, further bind yourself vital-energetically and spiritually onto them. Your kidneys only become free in the function when you spiritually break away from them, when YOU have become free.

Reflection: The termination of your relationship to your parents is not about your masculine willpower, yet about the - to a high degree provided - feminine forces of gentleness and serenity, tenderness and no resistance.
Therefore you will have to consciously and willingly let go of them (on the spiritual and soul levels) in order to reach the primal grounds of your own feminine and masculine forces. You cannot solve this with the mind, only with the heart.

Breathe the light into your kidneys and consciously decide to let the inner light shine within them. By your decision it happens.
The ankle is the base of a soft and supple locomotion, the origin of the erection onto the hind legs. It is the base for the next, here and now pending (!) leap or down jump. The ankle makes the rolling motion of the foot possible and with that a flowing, graceful motion, a lithe, elegant development without a constant breaking and accelerating.

A strain in this area shows that a spirit-soul impulse – a feeling and perception, an intent and a longing, was overdrawn. A graceful motion of the Spirit was controlled by mind and emotions, forced and contorted. You went way too far and over expanded your inner toleration, walk-, stand- and jump ability. Who ignores their spiritual impulses reaches their bodily limits very fast and risks a fracture.

Thus far this sounds very theoretically. So let’s get practical: If you walk your path – and only yours – your steps and leaps are automatically soft and powerful, supple and balanced. If you walk the path of others – many others, which you as the firstborn daughter do, no doubt, - your path gets multifaceted and bewildering, led by many Spirits with differing steps: stumbling, breaking, accelerating, staggering. Because some want to walk faster, others slower. Some want to go left, others right. Some want to go forward, others back. Some want to dance others (still) march. Some others yet want to run and others not do another single step. Well, we could continue the list endlessly, yet you have by now understood what this is all about, right?

Reflection: The solution can only lie in arriving completely within yourself. Stretch and expand spiritually and with your soul to release the body. The overextended bow needs to relax.

Contrary to the bodily, the elasticity of the soul is great and the spiritual expansion is limitless. Begin to explore this and find the measure of step of your divine Spirit on Earth. It already exists.



The child suffered a double fracture of the femur on the right leg. A long time at the hospital and a separation from the parents followed. This case, too, wants to be taken apart a bit as it allows you more insights into the finesse of your creative powers.


Each incidence on Earth is very finely tuned from the spiritual levels, even initiated. All kinds of accidents, falls or other fateful events are perfectly orchestrated in timing, place, circumstance and detail on Earth – according to your life-plan and your spiritual decisions on a day-by-day basis, which either open or close your earthly paths, depending on the situation.

What on Earth looks like a sudden fall, accident or blow of fate is a consequence and result of a long standing smouldering blockage in the unseen realms. At the same time it is a revelation of a ingenious creator-plan, which meaning lies within the readability – in the translation of the earthly events into the spiritual intent.

A fateful event is only possible if an inner balance has come off kilter so much that a severe pointer and a lasting correction of the earthly paths becomes necessary. From this point of view, accidents are compulsive briefings by longstanding and unresolved problems. A certain taken path blocked for too long the power of the soul and the inner evolution. Therefore, it gets stopped in a drastic manner.

No other than yourself, your Spirit-self decides these actions, no God, no coincidence, no fate influences your earthly life – only you yourself! Therefore there is nobody, you can hand the responsibility over to. Simply take it yourself and solve your problems quickly and easily.


Children take on the blocked forces of the parents, during the first 7-year cycle mainly those of the mother, during the second 7-year cycle those of the father. In this case it is therefore not a problem of the child, yet of the parents, especially the mother.


We could translate each single detail, and we have to indeed when we want to look into the inner depths. Of course it was not by chance the bedroom window and not the kitchen window. And of course, it had to be a window and not a balcony, which has a different meaning and would have blurred the insight of the inner meaning. First, let’s look at the analogy of the circumstances.

Bedroom: Spirit-lung, soul-heart, inner forces, physical relaxation and spiritual alertness

Upper Floor: Spirit-lung-father, soul-heart-mother, soul as messenger between Spirit and body, communication in relaxation

Window: eye and view of the world, focus, perspective and sight, window of the soul and inner sight ( the prophetic vision-gift of a blind), window of the Spirit and perception of the spiritual view

Fall: the climax is exceeded; high throne; to feel too secure; imagining a false safety

15.8. - date of the fall: Assumption Day, feminine primal force in the mergence with the masculine

During the first years after the birth of the first child there was a grim brawl between the parents regarding the upbringing. Your mother was at the beginning of her twenties, herself still soft, childlike and without fixed ideas, just about grown out of her own, not undramatic, childhood. Your father was at the end of his thirties, already tightened in his experiences of a cold world and frustrations. He had the necessary psychological pressurizing mediums, to indoctrinate his own ideas of upbringing onto her. Your mother conceded much more than necessary. She gave herself up and denied her feminine power, which could have held the family in an emotional and soul-balance as the only alive, feminine element. Instead, she succumbed to the dictate of her husband – to keep the peace. Yet no peace came out of this. With this decision, she threw herself off of her soul-spirit throne and lost her ability for a feminine alertness and relaxation, which she wanted to place in the upbringing of her child. She lost her focus onto her own inner sight of life. She lost the view onto a joyful family life, to which she could have contributed.

Her spiritual intent had been the anchoring of the feminine element in a through-and through ossified male structure. Her perspective lay in the redemption of a degenerated male domination through her Marian-force. She was a queen on the throne of the mergence of opposites during the darkest hours of the age, yet she didn’t use her throne. She refused her feminine might, didn’t claim it – out of meekness, feelings of inferiority or guilt – it doesn’t matter. She didn’t realize that she was betrayed her own spiritual protective function toward you children. Therefore you were at the mercy of the frustrations and harshness of your father and the brittle male society. This had to have consequences. You took a part of those. It was the fall of your mother, you took on. Your fall could affect and shake her heart more as her own could have done. This blow was directed at her, it was supposed to shake her awake.


The time in a situation of physical paralysis is a break in the life flow. It’s a time of inner contemplation, the remembrance of one’s own inner intents, the time of deep inner reflection and self-regeneration. A violent disruption cut off the retracted tracks from one second to the next. Onto these tracks, the body-soul-spirit doesn’t want to continue at all! Sleep and powerlessness, pain and coma shake up the ego and help it to think over it’s thinking and feel it’s feeling in order to eventually become an attentive and observant part of one’s own life, as it isn’t only his.

This break applied to your mother as well as to you.

Many weeks of being without a connection to her child threw her back into her own childhood and vulnerability, into her own dreams of a nice life, into her disappointment and helplessness – onto a point of inner despair, which is at the same time a point of hope and change. This time has shown her her own weakness but also her strength, which she surely took on and implemented as well as it was possible within the society back then.

For you, the break had another meaning. You brought considerable feminine and masculine spirit powers into your body. You wanted to bring both into a new and lively balance. The unexpressed Marian-forces of your mother reflected you back onto your spirit-feminine forces, which you wanted you embody independently from her. With this fall, you stole yourself away from her aura to be alone. You wanted to follow your own inner communications as well as study new ways of earthly-feminine uni-polarity. For this, a new field of perverted feminine energies opened up in form of rigid sisters, who expressed their abstruse power and physical violence against you and your mother – servants of Judas, who mirrored your mother her self chosen powerlessness; women, who at the end of time on their part were uni-polar female victims of a perverted, uni-polar male society. Yet victims also become offenders when they meet a weaker person. This is true for your mother toward you, as well as for the sisters toward her. And so the carousel of offender-out-of-victim-hood gets carried on endlessly until it gets stopped consciously and willingly. This happens at the Turn Of Time through you masters. For that you came. Yet for the start, you studied this end-time uni-polarity painstakingly.


We can even look deeper onto the long gone things, which are still alive. The pain of the parents is the pain of this generation. We describe in Lesson 3 Turn Of Time the threefold time. Around 1945 reigned the primal light and dark in highest spiritual presence equally on Earth. They put humanity under huge pressure to decide in the midst of all this outer darkness for the light, to decide within all that perverse uni-polarity of the male and female syndromes – the patriarch-and-housewife-syndrome – for the mergence of the forces.

The demanded spiritual progress expresses itself amongst others in the femur, which masculine Piscean-Age bone is protected by the feminine Aquarius forces during the times of change. If these feminine forces are negated, these protective forces drop and the brittle bone fractures. Here, you substitute for your father. Even though at this time, your bones were soft and supple, your love pulled his spiritual brittleness into your body and allowed them to break. Because you came to carry and transform their burdens, from the beginning of your life.

The femur represents the power of progress and ascension. It is moved by the largest muscle of the body, meaning that it is supported by greatest earthly-spiritual force. It is responsible for moving on, for a courageous stride – yet also for escalations. Ascension and progress for humanity on Earth was the intention of your mother before her incarnation. She didn’t come for herself, yet for the many. Therefore, there was a spiritual request upon her. All attending forces were willing to take this step against the outer view of her husband here and now (right side of the body). Her inner ability for giving, loving protection and motherly guidance should be expressed. The largest part of these powers, she didn’t muster and rendered herself and the course of things to her husband, who carried the brittle male energy of the ages inside of him and insisted on them. Her task was now limited to keep you away from the worst and to perform an ever larger split between Pisces and Aquarius, between her parents generation, to which her husband belonged in a way and you children.

The break between her spiritual intention and her bodily decision was now carried into all dimensions. Thus is how it came to the breach between her soul and her ego. There was also a breach between her as a wife and her as a mother - a breach between you and your father, which she also tried to intercept. And finally, there was a break inside your body, as you loved them both and came for both.

This row of breaches was carried on within your family during the next decades as a neglect of boundaries, in improper actions and relationships, in afflictions, imprisonments and excessive demands. This was eventually continued in your new family and the next generations. It will continue until you release it willingly and consciously.


Once you agree to do such a service of love for your parents as a child, their problem becomes yours, as the cause of their problem was not resolved with your fall. You only took them on into your body and your life. Here lies the reason for the phenomenon that later at your own age you think, feel and act just like your parents as they are simply still within you. It lives and affects you further and so you have to solve it as your own problem in your adult years. Once you solve it within you, it is also solved within them. This is a spiritual power, a cosmic mechanic. It’s called might by humility and is opposed by the earthly pole powerlessness by humiliation.

The insistent denegation of the feminine forces of your mother caused you to take on this potential, which is expressed in your own unresolved feminine personality as well as in your search for a partner, which keeps leading you to very masculine dominated women again and again. What you didn’t feel as a son or a man has anyway come through you as father: in your daughters lives the very feminine primal force, which feels a deep love for the masculine pole and by this becomes the merged power of the New Age. Therefore they possess a deep force for redemption for your mother, their grandmother. You are now the bridge between them.

Your fall out of the window is a Second Descend after incarnating. It concerns your spiritual function for shift. The old view of the world of parents and mankind oscillates infinitely deeper than your spiritual sight. You came for them. To them, you wanted to bring the light. With the first descend, your incarnation, you had not yet reached them, therefore you had to allow yourself to fall once more in order to arrive at their earthly self and to experience all pain and breaches, all dependencies, aggressions and violence, all confusion, self-betrayal and self-perdition within the own body.

This potential of resonance matures within you now since many years and enables you one day to deeply understand the humans of the old times and to shift their burdens within this understanding. The redeeming understanding is of great radiant power, in which self-love, self-authorisation, respect and gratitude, esteem and humility, modesty and might are indeed unified.

Reflection: Back then, these were the problems of your mother and father. Re-read the text with this point of view again and sense the rising feelings toward your mother and your father within you. Take notes and let it sink in. Allow yourself time. Finally, reach a point in your consciousness where you can deeply forgive them and bless them for their life, for their power, for their darkened love and for their suffering.

Today these are your problems. Re-read the text once more under this perspective. Now you are what your parents were then. Find out which of the then-decisions, self-defamations, oppressions and excessive demands you have now put upon yourself for years. Allow yourself plenty of time and take new decisions for each of these points.

Of course, it was not only their accident inside your body, yet also yours. And it still carries a deep meaning for you today. Reconstruct the course of this accident in your mind and Spirit:
Recall the events with your waking conscious and also allow your Spirit to guide to that event in meditation. Perceive what happens inside of you.

Assign the events and your perception onto your former life-situation. See through the events of the accident as an incursion in your life and help this unredeemed display of power in the fall into redemption: break the ranks, run riot, walk in zigzags on a straight path. Dance the dance of your life and bring new impulses in your life.

Get ready to overcome the limits between the separated areas of Spirit and body, masculinity and femininity within yourself. Decide to make peace – with the family and all involved beings and realities. Enable the exchange between you and the spiritual realms, between you and the feminine realm. Occupy the space, you need.

Be prepared for an intensive transboundary spiritual exchange, for new paths, new sounds and new rooms.


Stuttering happens at the bodily level of the mouth (maturity, expression), neck (connection and communication between heaven and earth), tongue (flow of speech, weapon).

The weeks in hospital opened a lot and had a great effect within you. The power of the inner master and the outer child have matured together with the energies of fear, shock and pain and in their mergence, something new emerged: a new maturity, a deep inner wisdom between heaven and earth, which now pushed to be expressed.

The tongue can be used manifold as a supple tool or weapon. Therefore it has wonderful ways of blocking and hindering one’s own flow of speech, which wants to arise from the subconscious. One’s own flow of speech is cut in order to not speak out loud what is surging up. You have something to say, have to tell them a lot, are able to put many things right. You can tell them many wonderful secrets and stories from other worlds – yet they shut you up, don’t want to hear it. Yet it rises with a great force to the surface within you and seeks expression. And so, your small ego, which knows the drastic punishment for talking without permission already, puts a speech barrier in place in order to control the infinitely whispering, singing and talking Spirit – to not have to say freely what wants to bubble and dance out by itself.

You had to contribute a lot, which would not have been tolerated by your parents. You wanted to tell them so badly! The certainty to say too quickly too much if this would have been allowed, was putting you under pressure just as much as the fear to free what was rising without permission. This reveals early the warrior within you, who wasn’t gonna put up with this for long, yet would very soon act determinedly. And so, a subconscious barrier had to be put up and you pointed the sword of your tongue against yourself.

The dominance of blocked male family-energy blocked your intellectual-masculine speech centre. The language of the feminine hemisphere (music and singing) stayed mostly free, yet suffered by the missing male pole. Between these two lay the stumbling or stuttering block.

At the same time you find in the stutter a way to find attention still. Your ego found itself suddenly in the centre of compassion and began – volte-face - to execute power over the others in its way. You now could put the agonizing spell of your broken words onto them – revenge is sweet! Who would now dare to interrupt you?

They had to listen to you: spellbound, intently and mostly agonizingly and nobody dared to interrupt you. This is a subconscious abuse of a jam against the weaker. Again, a little victim turned offender.

Reflection: There are still remainders of this then-positive blockage of your flow of speech. Yet now they have become redundant, a hindrance for yourself. Allow your rising feelings and thoughts expression through you. Allow the inner voices and sounds to become audible on the outside. Stand by your inner impulses, those thought images and perceptions from your masculine and feminine hemispheres.

Admit your own wishes for power and control over others and find out which unfulfilled needs they have satisfied. Take notes and allow plenty of time. Finally decide to realize these needs.

You already found a passable way with music and singing to obtain flowing control over thought and speech, to pause, to convey yourself and find understanding for what is yours on the outside. ( Note for others: use the breath, the music and singing and also loud and accentuated speech of lyric or spiritual texts. Use laughing and crying. All these agents are healing and expression itself.)

Speak little and feel a lot. 90% of all daily spoken words are justifications, apologies, repetitions – ballast of the soul, limits of the Spirit. Say little even amongst people. Decide to live like in a trance, in which few words flow simply.
Not your abilities coin your life, yet your decisions.


This is a repetition of the same fight with other weapons –see fall out of the window. The life of Spirit and soul happens at the chest area. (organs: heart – soul and lung – Spirit, house: bedroom and upper floor)

The pleura is the stretching frame for the lungs, the casing and membrane of the spirit. The lung is a being of boundless freedom and abundance, a being of the descended spirit, a being of childish carefree-ness and the respect for all beings. Your lung lives tightly pent-up between the poles of restrain and freedom. The skin, the membrane, is on the one hand masculine-tough and on the other hand feminine-cuddly. It is elastic and flexible. It lies inside a healthy body-spirit elastically and flexible around the masculine-feminine spirit of the lung, persistently protects it and nestles next to it. Here, the feminine spirit (of the mother) is forced from the outside into a male corset, constricted and superimposed by it. The forces get into a struggle for a space to live, which is played out on the membrane of the lung, the earthly casing of the spirit.

It is a battle between you and your mother over the feminine soul survival and also a battle of the masculine and feminine forces against the limiting ego-spirit as they themselves get into an imbalance by this massive outer pressure.

Reflection: Carry out arguments inside the environment of your communication area, meaning inside the scene in which you operate. On the outside tell others your opinions lovingly yet offensively and don’t shy away from friction. Decide to communicate quicker, easier and more casually than this far.

Inside, decide to preserve your own communication organs. Find out what causes friction for you, what used to exhaust you and be ready to face disputes. Argue your opinion in the area of conflict of communication courageously, voice issues of the soul, take them seriously, convey yourself.


A lorry represents the progress with goods, the development of the spirit through matter, yet also the adherence of the spirit in matter. It stands for transport, logistics and communication, yet also for the dominance of the masculine matter at the cost of the feminine lack of matter.

The brain has the same meaning: communication, transport and logistic. In the head reigns the government of the earthly body, the ego-consciousness with it’s separating and forcing thinking in the brain, yet also the cosmos of the planet, the spirit-consciousness with it’s holistic unconditional perception and receiving crystal – the pineal gland.

A concussion is a jerking of this double centre, especially of the ego-governed thinking systems, the thought patterns, which were taken on from the parents. If nothing can shake you anymore, if you are stuck and deadlocked inside your views, you can still be reached in this way. Again, this is not about you, yet about a taking over of parental blockages. Yet, let’s keep reading as if it was yours: a concussion demands a withdrawal of the head’s dominance, which has gone at least one step too far here. It corrects by force a mental meandering: to bash one’s head against a brick wall has painfully failed. The hit on the head creates a temporary loss of responsibility, control and power, which are a fixed part of your thinking and acting at any other time.

The accident, you had as a six year old child is a result of the materialistic dominated orientation of the parents, who confused your spirit-oriented perception and covered it with their earthly chaos structures. The ego orientation of the parents shakes your spirit-orientation.

The material orientation of your mother results from her suppressing her feminine power of perception and the earthly misery of the fore-bearers. These forces have dislocated and distorted their inner forces of perception. The mother puts control and manipulation (implementation of the wanted) first and forces with that the flowing, playing spiritual brain waves of her son into a rigid framework of fear and control.

Reflection: The same applies as in the chapter about the fall out the window. First look at it all as a problem of your mother (parents) and allow your feelings to rise. Then, view them as your own problem.

In meditation, return to the place and the time of the accident and from your heart, look which forces were acting then. Don’t try to remember with your head ( it is already banged) yet allow your spiritual brothers and sisters to show you the most important points.

Release old and taken on ways of thinking, which led to this and later to further such catastrophes. Allow your head ample periods of rest. Check your taken path carefully, allow your thinking to pause and turn toward your feeling.
Decide to overlook certain things, forget and forgive them. Release your thinking, your responsibility and power voluntarily. Let them slide into the spiritual realms in order to rest here on Earth.

May this, you great adventurers and innovators, you explorers, medics and test persons, you victims, offenders and creators – may this be enough for today! May the veils lift between the realms of your bodies, your souls and the Spirit.

We are with you during the hours, remembrances and tears and we will together with you – if you allow – bring your crystalline being into the daylight in these times of humiliation and humility of life! At the deepest bottom of pain is the gate into the light – and it is open, indeed. We are with you – in love.

I Am Saint Germain.
I Am Sabine.


Text: Sabine Wolf / Update: St. Germain / Proof-reading: Monika Schwörer


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