Heuweiler im Breisgau
Tobias in April 2008
Translation: Zsuzsanna Schrag
April, you loved ones is starting with two hefty titles and topics: the wild free life and sexuality. Slowly we're really scraping the barrel now. Well done! Further on it's about your school-children and doctors as well about your daily spiritual impatience, which you love to turn into dramatic scenes and out of this send US a claim. Now what shall we say to this? Read yourself.
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Matthias und das Zicklein
Crystal children and Vaccinations
Translation: Zsuzsanna Schrag
Question
Dear Sabine, you have given an answer to school problems, which I've read very attentive. Here it is about my daughter: love in person. Every now and then she brings feverish illnesses home and sometimes she simply doesn't want to go to school. How far is this a disease - or a probable reaction of the homely situation, I don't see as the topics are altogether interlaced.
My question: Can this precautionary vaccination at the age 1 -3 bring damage to the child? She always struggled with it. Now I blame myself for putting through my will. And if it is so: How can I support to neutralize this disrupting factor? Use homoeopathic methods or Schüssler salts? Do these aids help at all with these new children? Or did they only help us because we believed in them?
I'm sure your answer is also interesting for other parents.
Answer
Dear Regina, this topic "crystal children and old institutions" is at the moment up to date enough that we love to deal with it as far as Sabine's time allows us.
Of course are all crystal children LOVE IN PERSON - but all children have always been so.
One-days-diseases are the sure sign of daily taking up of dark outer energies and in the night the inner releasing and the clearing of their outer fields. With this she comes to know herself better and gets strong even if it looks like a weakening. This is not the case.
The crystalline Light-bodies - as well the so born Crystal-children as the becoming so grown up crystal people - draw automatically, without the human will swinging with it, the darkness out of the world to themselves and suck it out of the horizontal world to release, redeem and crystallize it in a vertical stream.
About her school-refusal you already have read our hints in the answers to Sheila (Crystal-school-children) - and of course mirror your children also your topics, as you did with the topics of your parents when you where children. And to the same degree as your parents weren't responsive to you and didn't give you space, now your children mirror also the not redeemed heritage of their grandparents which you carry in your selves. Do not let this be a problem - it is not. Breathe free! Your children are stronger than you believe - even if you know that they are strong.
As you could cuff your ears for the vaccinations today, have you - could we say: done enough penance (Saint Germain smiling). This means: At that time your rather fearful, aggressive and magnetic aura has long ago changed into a crystalline light field and has cleared all the damage that could have resulted from it. Pharmaceutical and natural substances crystallize with your bodies and fields if they flow there in - except you decide for disconnection and drama. Then they don't crystallize but darken your bodies.
That means: You decide yourself if the substances draw you down or you draw them up. Very simple!!! It is no more a disruptive factor therefore is there anything to be dispelled. Now, how dispelling could happen we don't know by any stretch of the imagination either.
Everything has the effect, if you let it happen. If you decide that homeopathic remedies do help you, then they will help. If you decide that chemotherapy helps you and then it will help. If you decide that air and love do help you, then they will help you. With this your next question should be answered, isn't it?
It wasn't faith but inner knowing. Faith also is a construct of old times, where you where separated from inner knowing - from your certainty. This is no hair splitting: The essential difference between faith and certainty is the inner alignment. Faith led you again and again to the outside, to priests, advisers, peoples and gods - who and where they ever where and what ever they have said. Certainty leads you to the inside - deeply to your self! Don't you see? And here the real powers of healing lies - of being heal. Faith is tied to no-will and certainty to will.
Now you have received a bunch of answers and with you the world - a bunch of parents, if we look around here. And if you want to wear sackcloth and ashes then let it be that much, that the phoenix of your soul can rise out of it and stand up. Then you can fly together with the children and cry out the beneficially shout of the phoenix into the world of faith - and support the awakening inner knowing of mankind.
We love you! We love you all!
We love your children, teachers and doctors!
We are Saint Germain, Seth and Sabine
(id--26.10.08)
School-Crystal-Children
Translation: Zsuzsanna Schrag
1st letter
Dear Sabine, words are rushing through me, there is so much I want to tell you and trust that you feel how happy and courageous I left Lichtpunkt! I hope you (and Monika) have really allowed yourselves the one and a half days of sleep and now are spinning around again.
On Monday at the railway station in Hannover I switched on my mobile and had a SMS that on Sunday Loa had a dizzy spell (trembling knees, white as death, no energy and headache) and wouldn't be able to go to school.
In the evening I returned to a crying, stubborn Loa, so no arriving with breathing out and relaxing.
I think being "ill" not only had to do with my attending a seminar but also with the school. Since last autumn there is a teacher, who decided to close her heart and not to let it be touched by anything or anyone and first of all not by children. She is very cool, very hard and Loa had difficulties with her from the first school day on (and the teacher with her, I believe that she feels seen through by the "clear sight" of Loa). The last two years she liked to go to school, sometimes she took some days off, but she attended school with joy, she is a good pupil.
Now, Loa announced very clearly that even on Tuesday she wouldn't go to school either and if she sounds so clear I have no chance to convince her to do the opposite. Again and again she asked why she has to go to school, she can/knows already everything and so on. Then I had a longer talk with her and we agreed upon that she can stay at home another day, but on Wednesday she will be going to school again.
On this occasion I have told her that she is a Crystal-Child (she asked very interested - now I don't really know was this clever?) and told her that she can "do" light-food, but it is not about not eating anymore but to eat out of joy and sheer delight those wonderful things (including chocolate and jelly babies). About this she was delighted and said - smart as she is - in this case she also would do a light-school from now on! Since then she is eating properly and I can (except a tiny rest of mother-hen-being) simply let her do her thing.
Now, what I wanted to ask you and the girls and boys: What about this dizzy spell? She already had one some 3 weeks ago during a violin lesson and since a salmonella-intoxication (in July 2006 she had been for two week to hospital with high fever, she lost a third of her weight then) she is complaining again and again about pain and weakness of her joints (most of all, knees and elbows).
Can I do anything for her and do you have some advice concerning the school situation? Since she has this teacher, she also has lost all the joy with riding and playing the violin. I'm tempted to give her to the Waldorf-School or something similar, but I'm unsure if this would be the solution.
Today with a bit grumbling she went to school, she didn't tell much, so I would be thankful to see/ feel her more clearly.
Please tell Monika my hearty regards - I love you all! And as I told Monika already, now for you also: in my home there is always a bed free for you all.
In beforehand I thank you out of my heart - maybe the answer will flow right to me (the lucky ones can rely on help from above - or how is it said? Sorry I'm a Bible Philistine). Out of my heart I'm hugging you and Monika. Sheila
Answer
Dear Sheila, Loa is responding to your transformation. This is so natural. You came home from the workshop DISEASE? HEALTH!! with a considerable changed aura and now she is following - not without resistance, of course. Although she never was happy with your motherly "victimhood", but she arranged with it and so had you a bit under her "control". Now you withdraw from this, you stand beside her - over her. This is good so.
You deprive from her the unredeemed role of a monarch in your mother-child-relationship, you seat yourself on the throne and from there you can lead and nourish a 9 year old girl adequately - and can give her orientation. She will accommodate to this - she will find a new form of use with you and herself.
It was not a fault telling her that she is a crystal-child. Anyway she knows herself but needs an outer reassurance. She needs an orientation between her inner-self and the outside - two complete different worlds. Openness strengthens her spine and helps her to become aware of her inner being and to bring her onto the outside. If they - still in these times - cannot act and be free at school, then an open home is vital for these souls. Children have no problem with double-roles, with as-well-as, with playing a role. If they have only one hold, only one refuge, only one room of deep ensuring and security, then they are capable to go out into the world and stand all requirements.
And here we come to the school problem. The times where the school could mould your children, to interfold and press them into schemes, are over. Neither the zeitgeist nor the children will allow this. Schoolteacher never loved their pupils - but in the meantime they are exposed to hundreds of clear sights, crystalline eyes, open hearts and upright spines, crystalline auras and high spirit-electrical energies - their pupils. With this their old and deeply internalized magnetic life system breaks down, because they themselves grew up moulded, interfolded and pressed into schemes - grew old. Often is their "pupil-bullying" just a desperate inner defence towards the light which your children radiate - with which your children threaten them.
Although it is problematic, but relatively light to solve: strengthen the spine of your children, let them know that they are something special and that they can help the teachers. Help them to understand that school is a wonderful countertrade: they give their light to the teachers (new knowledge) and the teachers give them lessons (old knowledge). Both are needed. Both want to merge. And here are not the teachers the guides and leaders, but the children and their awakening parents.
Support your children as well as the teachers with your heart-light. Radiate your compassionate love into the hearts of old systems and the people who are working and caught there. Put light-columns into the buildings and places (the same is meant for people, towns and rooms of all other institutions of your society). Talk with your children about their inner power and let them tell you what they feel inside and how they articulate it. Learn and grow together. Use your knowledge of the lectures, especially 3, 14 and 15 and share this in your way with your children. They will know a lot what to do with it.
Loa also lets go of the matrix of disease and drama just like you. She does this also for the others. Talk to her that her teacher by all means needs her/your love to be able to let go of her dramas. Talk to her that the teachers once also have been little girls who maybe didn't have an easy life. Explain to her the technique of light transmission as far as you understand and use it. Let her take part of your knowledge - and don't be astonished when she tells you simpler and more effective methods (haha).
A new school doesn't make sense, when she doesn't learn to give and do something to make her situation better - and this she absolutely can because she is an angel-being who came to bring redemption to others. This also wouldn't be bad to tell and make comprehensible to her. Thank you for your bed, loving regards from Monika and me. Sabine
(id-11.08)
Foto: Wolfgang Bruns-Fiebelkorn
When is it starting now?
Translation: Zsuzsanna Schrag
In the meanwhile this correspondence is 2 months old and our dear friend Matthias - again - had great benefit out of it. Now, you can benefit too.
1st letter with answers in between
Dearest Matthias, when is it starting? Indeed, this is what we also ask us. Let us give you our very patient answers between your very inpatient lines.
Dear Sabine, dear Tobias, adored Saint Germain
Quote of the first answer of Saint Germain (extract of: Financial Worries - November 2007)
We are with you and together with you we will meet people. We will talk to you and act with you, clear and redeem together old with you and create new. But we require from you: keep your heart wide open and breathe deep.
And this we mean today also and ask you: did you feel me and us? In this moment are you aware of me and us as you read my/our answer to you - RIGHT NOW - ? Breathe now deep and high. Leave your horizontal alignment which is waiting for something which will never come and turn to the resources that are rotating in you and are waiting to be acknowledged.
Answer of Tobias (extract of: A Six in Sweepstakes - December 2007)
You have chosen to let the Christ being revive in you and to CREATE ABUNDANCE - NOT THROUGH AWAITING AND RECEIVING, BUT THROUGH DECISION AND GIVING, because you have great qualities in you which ripen in stillness and simplicity.
In the meantime what have you decided? What did you give? Or: What did you decide to give? The energies are here. They are at your command. The cosmic timetable was held. But it doesn't force you into the agenda; finally your life is no play of marionettes, where the strings are pulled on time. You are quite able to bring forward or slide back your personnel deadline for years, decades and centuries. The cosmic appointments arise out of FREE FLOWING, your appointments are the results of free flowing and braking, of opening and closing, of YES and NO, of inner peace and outer chaos. Your anticipation on us is big. But we are the ones who can ask something from you.
Now it is February and I'm still at the same topic. Nothing works! When I get up, some parts of my body feels like glass. Nothing goes with my finance. No light at the end of the tunnel. Each morning I'm fighting and breathing me out of my depressive state into the world of reality. A girl friend who visited my homepage meant that people should be storming my stable. But nothing is going. I know, I'm the creator of my life and create the circumstances.
The world you are fighting into every morning is no reality. She is an illusion, a drama - and a play which you apparently don't want to give up. You are standing in this "reality" in the posture of a receiver, of one who has to be supported, of a child who wants to be taken by the hand and carried along. Now, this is not your truth.
The friend who visited your homepage may not have noticed how big the energy clouds of disappointment, bitterness, rejection and blame are whirling towards the viewer. Nothing waves across of your self where your great heart power and human warmth could be felt. There is a lot of wisdom from other people - but without significance for you and your customers. Nobody who looks for what YOU can give will be drawn to it. At best someone who wants to help YOU, for example Sabine. At the moment we advised her not to have contact with you because we only want to go further with you when you, as you call this, have learnt your … hmmm … lesson, we would rather say: when you have jumped over your shadow.
Now, here we give you a further hint: Look closely at your website. Look with your heart. Feel into every picture, into every word, into every statement. Look for trueness and the inner honesty of your concern and offer. Feel into of what you really want from other humans.
Let your cognitions and experiences of the lectures from our seminar BEING A TEACHER 2007 and also from the messages from Babadschi and Maria, of which you where so delighted, flow into it.
Change those aspects of your website which no longer correspond with your inner truth. Radiate your love, your wisdom and compassion to the people. For this a website is very appropriate.
Now, how is it going on with me? Shaumbra, Tobias SG? I ask for an answer. Sincerely Matthias
So is it going on! Shaumbra! Matthias! Horse lover! We are with love, wisdom and compassion at your command - direct at your side. Indeed, you don't need the help of Sabine!
We are Adamas, Tobias and Ohama
2nd letter
Adamas, Tobias and Ohama, thank you for your answer which I have to digest first! With this my mind is overstrained and again I put the screws on myself. No, I was not aware of you! I'm not aware of still holding on to the play. Rather contrary the more I decide to let it go the more I have the feeling that it's sticking to me like glue.
Here again explicit I declare that I let go of drama and turn to my inner wealth.
What did I decide? What did I decide to give to humanity? I do not know!!! I don't even know what it means to jump over my shadows. I had the idea that I'm doing this every day. Obviously this is a false conclusion.
That my website is not authentic anymore I became aware of when I read your answer. I have no idea how I can bring it to the newest status.
Quote: But we are the ones who can ask something from you. Whatever this is - please let me know it!
I don't know the ropes anymore; in great confusion I'm going to sleep. Matthias
(id-11.08)
Hannover Zoo: Wolf
Who am I?
Translation: Zsuzsanna Schrag
Question
Dear Sabine. Out of the middle of great chaos I already have introduced myself to you all. The answer is the same as I'm getting for two years now: first of all I should be doing something for myself. Well, I have 4 children and no granny here. So I'm postponing this for later and do some reading and a little breath-meditation now. Nevertheless one question is torturing me: Was it coincidence that I got to this website or have I something to do with this?
Who am I? Do I only imagine this all here? Once I was told that I'm a very light loving soul, on another occasion that great possibilities are in me? Now a medium said that I'm in a process which would arouse my healing powers. Without any further explanations. What kind of healing powers are there? Again and again the term Temple Whore comes into my mind. Again is this only imagination? If I listen inwardly some of it I can accept. Then my ego again says to me, you are being mad! I wish to have clarity, to get some peace finally. That is why I'm asking you and you all to bring me closer to clarity. I know that my present work is to look after my children. But always something has haunted me. For a long time I have been looking for an/my assignment. Please help me to get some peace!
Thousand thanks!!!!
Regina (the name was changed here)
P.S. How does this go together an illness, in this case a fungal infection of the intestine, to accept it simply and let it pass and at the same time (a message of a medium I know) take medicine but not having to have a diet?
Answer
Dear Regina, not without reason ended your mail in my spam-filter. It looks like that your inner spiritual guidance, your spirit self is fed up with your searching on the outside and your inner steadfast self denial. Four children, even 24 children are no excuse for the choice being happy or unhappy.
The question, who you are, Seth answers now with: "A victim of your victimhood." The question who you want to be, can only be answered by you.
"Well, I have 4 children and no granny here."
This sounds like a triumph, like a joker or a special weapon which you use towards others. Now, it is your decision to be "4 children and a granny" yourself, who are wildly demanding and overstrained rampage in your self - and suffer. You are a grownup woman who could make a different decision. Nevertheless you receive further answers - from the outside.
Look under: http://www.kristallmensch.net/index.php/workshops-2008.html
And download the audio-files, listen to the messages, answers and meditations, rest a lot, let all streams flow free - make a decision when the time is ripe.
"P.S. How does this go together an illness, in this case a fungal infection of the intestine, to accept it simply and let it pass and at the same time (a message of a medium I know) take medicine but not having to have a diet?"
Fungal infection of the intestine is no illness but a physical expression of a rather warlike not-wanting-to-let go: emotions, victimhood, injuries, desire for revenge, expectations, and demands and … and … and …
ALL goes together and IT is very simple: The YES out of the heart (for EVERYTHING or against EVERYTHING - regardless what!!!) creates SPIRITUAL ELECTRICITY in your body-structure and lets all streams flow free. This YES is completely INDEPENDENT, doesn't listen to ANYBODY ELSE but to HER SELF.
Result: You can do or let whatever you want, if you are confident in your heart that YOU WANT IT LIKE THIS.
And if you still have the "problem" that you don't hear, feel and sense your heart (victims never do) then simply because you do not love your self (this victims also never do). If you WANT to change this state, I recommend you:
http://www.kristallmensch,net/index.hph/susannes-events-.html and
http://www.kristallmensch.net/index.php/susannes-conferences-.html
Loving regards to you
From the crystalline wolf pack who loves to eat victims
Sabine, Seth, Ohamah
Breathe this masculine-feminine spirit and rise!
(id-11.08)
The power of animals
Translation: Zsuzsanna Schrag
1st letter
Re: endless mourning and pain
Dear Sabine. About three weeks ago I have written a mail to you. It was about my miniature poodle Aron. I told you how much joy this high being brings to me and to people which we meet. Yesterday Aron (8 months old) has left our world. A big dog tore himself free from its owner and full of aggression jumped, just like a wild and hungry animal onto my little dog. I felt agony and cried out, like never before in my life, Aron screamed also!! People came running and with sticks wanted to strike dead the "perpetrator" … which I could prevent. Arons spine had been broken; again and again he screamed in pain, the veterinarian had to put him to sleep. Although I know that he went into light, I'm endlessly mourning, feeling enormous pains, I'm empty, cry hysterically, am shivering or have hot flashes … Such a grief I didn't even feel when my father or other family members have died. This happening produced a great wave of sympathy, grief and compassion. Again and again people call us and cry. Some of them project their rage onto the "perpetrator" and his owner. I don't feel hate but grief and try to explain this "perpetrator-victim" play.
The dog's owner visited us, cried and apologised. He said that he loves his dog and at home he is a good one. His wife has depressions and he himself is also not very good off (what the dog surely feels). My wonderful crystal-animal has taken so many pain and sorrow onto him - I thank and bow before him. Dear Sabine please do escort us all through this pain. Can you or someone from the spirit realms tell us something about this horror scenario? Many thanks for your work, in love Katharina.
2nd letter
Dear Sabine, here the second mail after Arons farewell from the earth plane. After three very hefty and intense days, today I feel again grounded in myself again. I have let my little dog go, I feel a very strong love in the stomach area -- there he always will be with me. I feel thankfulness towards myself also, because we two have achieved a lot (although I don't know what, but I feel it so). I'm ready to go on and ready for a new little crystal dog. This goes well to this February 29th, doesn't it? Great hug, many thanks to you all, love Katharina.
3rd letter
Re: What is happening here?
Dear Sabine, my new little crystal animal Amigo, a black and white miniature poodle, only has been with us for four days, then it ran under a car and passed immediately into the light. Now I'm just feeling emptiness and cold. Dear Sabine and Beings, what is happening here? I love those wonderful beings, why are they all leaving me? Thank you for listening, love to you all Katharina.
Answer from Ohamah
Here we want to talk about the power of animals, about their power over you also their power for and with you. Animals have power over you humans, when you subordinate yourself under them. On various occasions we have called you fools of horses, cats or dogs. Why?
A fool is, who subordinates himself under someone, who stands underneath him. I know quite well, that you don't like to hear this. You have problems with hierarchy, because your hierarchic patterns have led you to power and misuse of power, to repression and powerlessness - and this is what you understand under "hierarchy". Now this pattern of descending hierarchy had its meaning and signification during the time of your descending ages. Because of this and nevertheless is hierarchy a vital part of your evolution. Once she descended with you and now she is ascending with you. Hierarchy, in these times changes her meaning and effect, as well as everything else also.
The spiritual sense of hierarchy lies in the appropriate growth of all involved parts and members, being and races. Hierarchy is a part of your system and balance, a part of your descent and ascent - and so in your changing times on earth a significant part of your personal transformation and re-orientation - of your own dignity and creating power.
From the beginning on, have animals as wise, did accompany your evolution lines and they themselves have evolved in different life forms and rooms, bodies and group souls as well with patterns of movements and forms of communications. Primary purpose of their evolution on earth consisted of serving you in your evolution, to take care of your emotions, to mirror and polarise the progression of your feelings through all ages and accompany you in all life rooms. In this they are the wise, who seemingly ruled over your deep hidden and evident, your love and not loved, your positive and negative emotions.
The power of animals over you has many faces. One face is your crude love to them, another one are your life-philosophies which you bind on them. Another face is your fear from them; again another one is your denial towards them, your disgust towards them. With this you put them - if you want it or not, notice it or not - onto your own life-throne. And deep within you, you love and curse them for this. You love and curse your self for this. These dual-chaining happened deep down in you over many ages. Now they are ascending and rule your thinking and feeling. In both cases you put the animals onto your life-throne and not yourself. You occupy your hearts with them.
Animals are living completely independent from you, indifferent if you bind them onto your emotional chains, share your rooms and beds with them or watch them shuddering and fascinated behind bars and bulletproof glass.
The power which they wield over you, you yourself are giving them. The powerlessness which you experience with them you create yourself: Everything you feel and give them is flowing back to you - in good and bad. This power and powerlessness means SEPARATION and SUBJUGATION. Remember the room-splitting of the early dust-age in our Creator-Story. With this you have created ABOVE and BELOW, POWER and POWERLESSNESS, DOMINANCE and SUBJUGATION. And of course this life-construction also means your animals, which joined as accompanying evolution-line and agreed to your rules of the game. So it is deeply regardless if you subdue yourself to animals - in love and fear - or if you subdue the animals - in love and aggression. The acting power is SEPARATION FROM YOUR SELF.
Many of you hold that animals are bad off, have to be healed, the species loose their habitat and races are dying out. Many of you spiritual people think that for ages men have harmed animals and took their living space - and still are doing this. This is right and also wrong. The beings which you call animals have voluntarily accompanied you from the beginning on. At first you subdued yourself to ABOVE and BELOW, to fear and aggression and with this also the animals. Do they suffer? Yes, of course they suffer - but not as much as you all.
Then you subdued yourself to binding love and to the sense of guilt. And again animals suffered with you, but not as deep as you. Now you subdue your life to worldwide rescuing and healing actions for animals and races - and with this continue to subdue, to condemn and curse yourself. With this you end as fools, not able to any cognition and transformation.
The being of animals overtook many assignments and services for you: They offered you a home when you couldn't find one under humans. They forward to you those messages which you wouldn't want to take from men or from your self. Their messages always came at the right time and in an adequate way and helped you along, if you where prepared to receive it in your hearts.
For ages you didn't want to make use of it and subdued the animals. You didn't acknowledge that as keeper and companion of your life they stand over you. The animal-group-souls stood in their open, collective wisdom, which was transferred onto the instinct of each animal body, lay way higher over your closed individual wisdom. So at the same time they were your masters and servants as well.
Because of your individual upright spine, your own thoughts and feelings were separated and split off from all other beings - and at the same time bound to them with invisible bonds. In this time of your evolutionary blindness the animals were your masters who served you as subalterns, this until you became aware of your own royal dignity within your evolution lines and started to honour the animals - just as yourself.
All animals, the wild as the tame, the free as the captured and the honoured as the fat stock can perceive as well your mental separations and emotional entanglements as your spiritual potentials and bindings of your hearts. It was always regardless if you lived right amidst men or far away from them, outside of community at its edge.
Now let us look here at the seemingly reign over your pets and at the same time your subjugation towards them. Many of you think that you are the gents and masters over your animals but all the same you subdue yourself to them. You give them power. You notice that they give you much, that they have attributes which you miss with humans.
Animals wield a magic power onto you because of their innocence, through their purity, because of their not clinging to you, because of their being, which didn't get lost through individualisation of their body, but remained obtained in the group-soul of their race. But all these powers also lie within you, deeper and hidden, but of a greater power and perspective than with animals.
You are individual. Your soul lives in your solitary bodies. Within this lie both a blessing and a curse: the entire forgetting and the separation from all others. Each one of you carries the highest in your self; everyone wants and can create new worlds and new connections between the worlds. This is what makes you as a race unique on earth.
Animals are secured in their herd-souls, group-souls and race-souls. Differentiate between animal bodies and animal-group-soul. The bodies of animals are beings directed by their group-souls. Animals are not capable of creating new worlds. They cannot carry out the descent and ascent of their bodies. The intention of animal-group-souls is not death and resurrection on earth. Many of them draw back into their cosmic home, when companying your life is not necessary anymore. Your animals and races don't die because you displace them and take their habitat from them - because you are crude, insensitive and violent - but because you became ripe enough and don't need their help anymore.
Not your personal pets give you what you are looking for but their group-souls - and simultaneously they confronted you with demands and if you didn't follow, it could cost the life of some animals. The demand is self awareness, self-empowerment and letting go of animals. The group-soul-collective binds your body-field onto the body-field of the animals - and exposes the animals to the "fate" of suffering the same form as your forceful mind lets your soul suffer.
The group-souls direct the bodies of animals more than ever to humans for you to see them - and your self - in their true nature!?!? Only then can they give you all that, what you couldn't and didn't want to receive for many ages.
In this time of transition the relationship changes between you and the animals in such way. Your relationship to each other will be another. You open up to the animals and they open up to you. You start to look behind their "scenes" and they let you do it. They help you to look deep into their world and during transition they use those persons who serve them and you as transmitters of messages, until you are able to "talk" to each other.
When today an animal transmits you a greater message than before, gives you warmth and strength, when you suddenly have the feeling to be able to talk to animals, then means this that your own heart-power and your divine consciousness is open enough. Then you shift this lone animal - in resonance with you - into the capability to feel his own group-soul stronger than before. You heighten the animal to the same extent as you heighten your self. In consequence the consciousness of the animal body is growing. It adopts a greater part of the animal-group-soul in his body and becomes a "master under the animals" or also a "crystal-animal". The wise animal- group-soul expresses itself stronger than before.
Said it simply: Sleeping humans live with sleeping dogs and awakened humans with awakened dogs - horses and cats. The rising of animals is only possible within their race and only in connection with your own awakening. Indeed, increased you can find some animals as leading master-souls of their race.
Animals have as long power over you as you look at them as goals of your search, as long as you demand strength, comfort, love, honesty, faithfulness, playfulness and divinity from your dogs, cats and horses and refuse to give it to yourself and others. They are giving and won't stop giving it to you. Within this lie both blessing and a curse. The blessing: they give and nurture you as long as you can give and nurture yourself. The curse: they give and nurture you further on, even if you are already capable to nurture yourself, but ignore this. Your animals give and nurture you so long as your bodies degenerate, get ill and die - or you resurrect and pull them along.
The withdrawal of your companions
The power of animals over you declines. When ever you have reached steps of maturity on your path, your helper, who were at your side so far, drew back. Now you have achieved what they have taken care of and carried for you. You remember the time when your guardian angel and spirit guide where at your side. One day even they where gone. Millenniums, whole ages they have been at your side. You only were aware of them for five or ten years. And this awareness of their presence brought these beings to resign: you became able to see, lead and protect your self. What you saw and comprehended a short time later opened up within your self.
Your guardian angels and spirit guides went without asking, if you agree. Now, you wouldn't have agreed with this. Their withdrawal brought you over the last painful borders of your ego: not allowed to be CHILD anymore, but have to be GROWNUP.
The same will happen to you with your animals. They withdraw from you, however not by eluding your ego; having an agreement with your divine spirit and being gone the next day. Animals live different to the angels and to you in a body-form, which they only can leave by and by. Animals act according to your bodily form. The guardian angels are a spiritual-soul life-form; therefore they acted according to your spiritual will.
Now, your body-consciousness, your ego only then is giving up some things, when the pain of holding is too great and lets it go by itself. And exactly this development of letting go of animals is predetermined for your ego-forms.
The second pain free and joyful possibility to let go of the power of animals - and with this to let also go of the animals, lies in assimilating their wisdom and their being in your self. Then you can let them go. But this wisdom comes to many of you through the present of pain and loss.
Your question is: "what is happening here?" Your belief is that you love them; your experience is that they go anyway. The answer is: They leave you BECAUSE you love them - and you want to experience that love lets go.
4th letter
Dear Sabin, dear Ohamah
A heart full thanks for your answer about the death of my dogs. Yes, it is really so! Letting go in love, accepting and allowing what is, is the thing I've learned. A lot I had to let go, but received also a great deal. Never before in my life did I feel so much compassion and real, honest love. Tears of thankfulness and emotion opened up the gate to me. (A great YES to femininity.) - And life goes on - Benito a half brother of Aron arrived in my life. His initial aggressive behaviour towards other dogs was a shock to me. Doubt, insecurity, fear and powerlessness were rising until I stepped into my power and took the leash in my hand. (A great YES to masculinity.) Immediately there was energetic and physical aid at hand. I talked to Benito and told him my wants. Everything together helped, immediately everything went better. This animal demands from me clear leading, love and confidence in my self, to accept myself in dignity. I thank my animals for their message. As you, Sabine always say so nice: I LET GO OF WHAT WAS, WHAT IS AND WHAT WILL BE. A big hug, lots of love and thank you for everything. Katharina (I will report at your account.)
(id-11.08)
Sprin in Heuweiler
Partnership and Pornography
Translation: Zsuzsanna Schrag
Question
Dear Sabine, what would be the equivalent to being able without coming? Is it to be able to come, but having in-between erectile dysfunction? At present it is so with my partner and me. I will give some details.
(1) It started years ago. In the middle of the night I woke up to find my partner not sleeping beside me. I got up to look for him. I found him in the study in front of the computer and saw that he was looking porn from a CD. When I asked him what he was doing, he said that he only was copying a CD for a friend and while this he was watching it. So far so good - the matter goes on. In the age of internet this ply continues. Endless sites of naked women, the most with great tits or hardcore was downloaded and collected on the pc. This mostly happened when I was not there and when I appeared the sites where shut off and others opened.
(2) At that time it bothered me a lot. I felt just like betrayed, felt that he was trampling upon my feelings/heart, felt not attractive enough for him - for me it was bad that he only looked at women with big tits and I only have cup A. I have started to compare myself with those women and I couldn't keep up. I have worked on these topics and found that I have undermined my femininity and didn't live it at all. (I even thought about breast surgery.)
(3) This game served me to arrive as woman within me - this I realized and it feels good. As at home I had a rather controlling and dominant mother who only lashed about with male energy, so I never could see let alone feel what it's like to be feminine and a real woman. I found out that I lived not enough female and too much male energy. My partner always accused me "You are just like your mother". When I have caught him surfing and took him to task he answered: "These women don’t bitch around like you" then I answer: "I don't bitch around but ask you to spend some time with me"(not that I couldn't occupy myself). (I always ask him what he is searching for. I think he is addicted, because there is no day without surfing for hours on the internet.)
It doesn't feel good, when he says that I bitch around - I feel so barred out. If we would look these together it would feel better and is okay for me.
(4) Some mistrust grew here. When men look at pictures on the internet or somewhere else and then go to their wife and want to have sex, then the woman does not know if she is truly meant or is it just lust which he caught and doesn't want to get rid off alone. I felt and feel sometimes unsecure and utilised. Often when I'm at his computer and rummage through the sites (in his absence or not) because he also finds some good and interesting info's, then intuitive I find hidden folders, files with funny names so that you wouldn't suspect hidden female pictures and I always find them. Always! When I approach him with this, he starts to beat about the bush, to lie, to find some explanations why he tried this or that.
(5) Here I miss his directness and honesty about his doings - the lie is where I loose my trust in him. Its not about the pictures anymore, they don't affect me anymore (before that I had heartthrob, heart ache, ice-cold fingers, one sided coldness in the body or hot flush out of rage, anger and powerlessness).
(6) Today I mean to know why I'm allowed to be a mirror for him. In the parental business he also has a very controlling and dominant mother. She sets the tone and how the firm gets on. There he cannot live his masculinity. When I was very strong in my male energy, then he couldn't live it in our connection either. Therefore he turned on the outside, on the internet and downloaded naked women - only here he can live his masculinity.
(7) In the meantime I have worked on my side of the problem and got more into my femininity than he likes, as he is now required to overtake the male part in our relationship. I feel that he doesn't want to go into his masculinity because it is easier and simpler to push this role onto me as it has been in the last years and so he doesn't need to confront himself with his addiction. (Why is he searching on the outside, what is he looking for? Why isn't he really with me - he is not only surfing for 2 hours, no - 6 - 10 hours a day, at work is also an opportunity.)
(8) This probably becomes noticeable in our sex life now. We noticed that during the intercourse we both change the polarity of our root chakra (front and back). When then in front "two female" (counter-clockwise) meet each other, nothing is happening and his erection ceases and drops. Or when it is great for me and I start getting passive (only want to receive) then his erection ceases also.
Or if I'm clockwise at the back, I'm masculine then and he is also clockwise, then for him it is but enough to reach orgasm. Then my feelings cease.
(9) When it was fine for both of us - then the next morning I feel like knocked out, totally exhausted, my limbs are like a lead weight. Where to is my life-energy flowing?
My partner just accidently switched the computer off (at the light-switch) and the rest is completely gone - I nearly had finished, funny isn't it? I do not know if I can repeat this again.
(10) Alas, he tells me that he is going to download those female pictures until I'm finished with this topic, problem, after all he is doing this only for me, that I can work on my problem. He is exercising unconditional love for me in accepting my allusions or accusations or, or, or. I feel dismissed - betrayed. When he says that only I have a problem with this - then I'm the scapegoat. This is deeply not at all so. Because I'm so masculine he cannot get onto his masculinity.
(11) In these last 3-4 weeks I underwent a heavy process. I had tremendous heartache, the right side of my body was either "on work" or ice cold. The right hip was nearly unable to move, with unbearable pain. For hours I have wept, cried out for help, I feel empty and cheerless. I was on the verge of writing to you, but then I thought to be able to cope with this alone. Today I want to ask for help. I had enough. I am at my wit's end. I wish true answers for my questions because I wish a connection to true love and honesty. I know that you and the spirit world will truly be at my side and tell me what there is still to be redeemed.
(12) What is there for me to do, for my partner and for both of us?
I have written a great deal and jumped through the years up to today. I think that a thread can be drawn of this.
(13) Still a last one: this is very intimate: what is the reason that my partner doesn't like to "lick" me? Doesn't the clitoris stand for the male part of the female? Doesn't this show here that he cannot accept his masculinity?
I thank you all for your patience and attention. I didn't think that I could put this problem into words. But I succeeded. With deep connection.
Answer from ISIS-OSIRIS
Beloved sister, for your very detailed question we want to give you and the people of these times, an equally detailed answer. Our answer is made up in two parts. The first is of general interest and the second will give detailed answer to your questions.
Part one
The hidden passion of your husband shows a deep unbalance, which is not only reins in him, but in all parts of humanity. It is reining in the female and male poles, within your masculine and feminine world. In different parts we talk about the famishment of men and women (remark: an Atlantic story in lecture 8 and different text at Tobias).
Your partner, with his hidden lust, is expressing that, which at the end of times is both a blessing and a curse, because the lust is only a veil for hidden pain. Blessing is the presence of your female whores and temple priestesses who can up to the end of time give men a substitute, a niche, a minimum nutrition which they cannot find in their tight family world. Social rules, morals, religion and ethic have constricted you and let you forget your wisdom and free flowing and made it to an enormous pain.
But not only men and the male-field, but also women and their energies have sunken to the deepest degree at the end of time, but also the beings of the whores, the beings of love-maidens, the beings of openness and generosity, the beings of love and the ones of sexuality. They all are part of your community, of your descent and its patterns and matrix, which hit rock bottom now - they are equally perverted as all the other reining parts of your community. From this point of view is what your partner does, neither unusual nor to damn.
Although you are in the changing of times at the advanced beginning of ascension of earth, of the enlightening of your life-fields, the opening of your consciousness, but you are still in a time-frame where you can detect descent as well as ascent with your coevals, if you look closely enough.
There are humans who still are at descending, gravitating and pauperising, while others are at the deepest point of their transformation, in complete powerlessness which is followed by awakening and ascending. Again others are totally in an awakening process and rejoice. And simultaneous you find these 3 phases and a great spectrum within them in your self - changing from day to day and often from hour to hour. This indeed is the severest moment of your descending and ascending journey, the severest moment of your path which lasts some years and decades. May this serve you as a background information and encouragement for your understanding not only towards him but also towards your self.
It is LOVE that formed all this. It is LOVE which created and brought it to blossom (Isis Osiris). It is LOVE that divided, separated and broke everything that was created. It is LOVE that let everything you were crumbling into dust (Seth).
It is LOVE your partner is looking for. It is LOVE that the world is giving him and so be you also full of love by looking and accepting these things (Horus) - as far as you can feel and bring about today. Feel into the power of your LOVE. Explore it. Be unconditional and without demand to their here and now appearing form, that changes from minute to minute steadily ascends and opens up.
These are the still separated energies of Isis and Osiris, of Seth and Horus that are stirring in you and are looking for orientation. In letting them become one within you they will awake in these days and will give you orientation and life.
It is LOVE he is looking for, self-worth, self-fulfilment and self-empowerment - the meaning and confirmation of his inner feelings and of his soul, the opening and experiencing of his spirit. Indeed do your bodies, your souls and your spirit build a bridge between Spirit and Sexus. Indeed vibrates your life in the body (spine, base, crown), in the soul (day, night, descent and ascent) and in spirit (cosmos, earth). Your life does nothing else than pulsate up and down between the poles of SPIRIT and BODY.
Now the masculine spirit has chosen the energies of descent, of materialisation, of pain and of forlornness in the material world with this he drew the feminine spirit to earth, for her to be able to create a body and a world. And indeed is the feminine divine being that assimilates the energies of nutrition, of ascension, of healing and of fulfilment in her self. The masculine being needs this now to reach his divine rein and magnificence.
And look, beloved sister, here lies what your spiritual partner is looking for and what the darkened world of Sexus is offering him. As long as Spirit and Sexus are disconnected in your selves, as long as you do not allow a free flowing between your inner poles, as long as you perpetuate the endless many fissures, separations and borders in your selves, are you dependent of these split and separating, we also could say: succumb to these allurements and temptations. Your partner does what you all do. You all are looking on the outside for the fulfilment of the within. You are experiencing what you all experience, your pain of separation, of exclusiveness and strangeness, the pain of forlornness, of twisted flowing that became marsh and drought. You reflect each other the pain in different ways.
The world of pornography is also the least, the most humiliated and simultaneous the most manifold, extensive and the earth covering form of LOVE, of divine temple whore and of loving-priesthood of Atlantis. Your paid feminine labours of love show the lowest form of sister, mother and mistress of men. But it is still LOVE.
The good wife as well as the whore is a feminine being, who are at the end of time subdued under a seemingly masculine dictate. But this is a demon, a darkened, reining and an exhausting mass consciousness, which is reining in the world as well as in you all. It feeds upon that fear and aggression, of all greed and exclusiveness, of all hate and prejudice which in your human world you bound onto LOVE. This mass-demon took the same path as you all.
Just as your ego at the end of time is the deeply humiliated form of your divine majestic dignity, is your demonic mass-consciousness at the end of time the deeply humiliated form of your divine community. But it is still LOVE.
Your twisted spines, your aching lower backs, your herniated disks, your cheerless lives and your economical poverty mark the deepest point of your divine DNA which wants to flow between its feminine-masculine poles from heaven to earth - and is flowing - in endless love, creator power and freedom, for a long time not being able to create new worlds - but did it exactly in this way. This you did, did this in your separation, in the times of your great forgetting.
Now you detect the outer worlds from a side which is hurting you deeply, but these are those sides in your self that hurt you as long as you do not accept them, as long as you don't allow it to stay in your hearts-love and transform, as long as you don't believe in your royal, priestly and divine dignity, which in endless power and strength is flowing between your Sexus and your Spirit (remark: Kundalini). Indeed is the resurrection of your divine being not bound to any other human, but deeply to your bodies, to your side-creator-centres in head and abdomen which is awakening in the all outshining love of your crystalline hearts.
Indeed is the resurrection of your spirit bound onto your bodies and with this to the will of your egos, whose deepest nature is control in the head and fear in the abdomen, to patience, indulgence and calmness, to the will to trust and let go of all pretensions, to the outside, to the world, to your partners and to the humiliated forms of your community, of the many worlds within your community.
Your question, your description, your situation and your being alive is a true testimonial at the end of time and we thank you very much for this, then indeed will some men and women profit from your question, your fear and your pain, will nurture respire within, become blame free and resurrect - find their divine dignity again.
Let your partner share our answers and love and open up for him the door to our workshop which we will arrange with the men of the world for the women of the world at the beginning of Mai.
Part 2
Here we will go into details of your letter. We want to give detailed answers to your letter and clear some apparent falsities. We numbered the text passages in your letter and in our answers.
1.
A man doesn't get erectile dysfunctions because of having platonic escapades, not being open, dishonest or evasive but because the flowing between his Spirit and Sexus is disturbed, disconnected or run dry. A man who in the first seven-year-cycle of his youth and adulthood did not experience an entire fulfilment of his body-sexual nature, that soul-spiritual climax which makes the perpetual recurring necessity of the bodily act unnecessary, will in advanced age (from the 6th seven-year-cycle, from age 36 on) have interferences of some kind because the aging body looses its capability to produce, master or let flow free the energies and fluids.
2.
You only can feel betrayed, if you regard a human as your own and find out, that he is doing things you don't expect or don't allow him. He is not tramping with his feet on your feelings, but he his trying to avoid those kicks which your own masculine self is giving to your own feminine self since decades - and which you unconsciously passed onto him for years.
"Big tits" as you call it - the female breast is the synonym of nourishment, giving life, and life-protecting, of being alive and at the same time of tenderness, beauty and power. First of all this applies for a woman herself, who for example is sick with breast-cancer, if she cannot allow these powers to awake in her self although they are demanding it from her. This applies for the child who takes up these strengths and powers with the mother milk, which your partner never received. And simultaneously this applies to the man who gave all his strengths and powers to his descending way and now at "her" he can nurture and find himself again.
And of course is the cup size not of concern but only the question if you are willing to give those powers and nutrition to the world or not. This is why we women in the "old and new empire of Egypt" as you call it, left our breasts uncovered. Our robes started underneath the breasts and fell flowing to earth. This was the time of complete balance between men and women, between Spirit and Sexus, an entire balance between bodily lust and spiritual wisdom - a great mutual respect between servant and sovereign.
You all are attractive - magnetic - if you are entirely within your selves, if you live to the full spectrum of your nature - and then it is enormous.
3.
After all this "little play" as you call it, managed to reach its goal: to get aware, to nourish and to open up your femininity, to reflect on your life's path and to achieve a great deal of inner width.
4.
In truthful and real sexuality, to which the biggest part of humanity is not able at this moment, is the topmost imperative, the first premise that men as well as women are completely one with their masculine and feminine energies within themselves, with their male and female twin-souls, with their Spirit and Sexus. With this the lust which opens up in the sexual act is a deep phenomenon where each one lives for him/her self, is experiencing within. This has at first nothing to do with the experience of the other. Only with this is a complete merging between the partners possible. This may sound paradox to you, but it is the question of approaching. You demand opening and dedication from each other without being able to open up and dedicate your self. Actually the opening up and dedication to your own life supports the opening up and dedication in your shared sexuality. So is the merged lust a being which will cause great stir when it rises and will cause ongoing changes in your lives and bodies.
You can be sure that it always has been his own lust which he satisfied with and on you, after the pictures of these women made possible for him to feel his lust. It is not easy in a bleak and joyless world to feel and arouse your inner lust - neither for men nor for women. The impulses for the feeling of sexual lust are in your pornographic and pharmaceutical worlds equally great, boundless and weak as the impulses of your remainder world, to loose this lust spontaneously and in the long run - is adequate for a period of time.
5.
You write that you miss his openness and honesty; his lies are taking your trust. Real trust, dear sister is not tied on masks but looks through them. Real trust is feeling the pain of the other, which riots behind his masks and does as it was nothing. Real trust redeems simply with LOVE and COMPASSION - without discussion and demand on commonness. Real trust binds itself not to marriage vow, possessiveness and eternity-demanding.
You expect from your partner to know what's he is doing, what's happening within him, but you don't really know what's happening within you. You don't believe him his - temporarily - truth and accuse him for lying. You do not accept his situation and behaviour. Where are your honesty and openness? Why do you rummage in his things and don't let him experience this world which he won't need anymore, when he received his nourishment. For him you are the primary woman of all here. By opening your self up, he will open up too.
6.
Here you are not his mirror but you continue to be the hard, manful, "un-attractive" and kicking around woman in his life, who he met through his mother. With this you take on her path at his side, as well as the one of the reprimanded and daunted child whom he is - and now you have the opportunity to open up the age long dense life-rooms of your mother-in-law, of your husband and of your self - those bleak and joyless miasmas of both generation-streams.
Indeed "living his masculinity" is by far more as to be the top dog in the firm and to download naked women from the internet. But let us leave it at that.
7.
Your sexual ground-energy is of masculine nature, while the one of your partner is of feminine nature. The sexual ground-energy is not bound onto your physical bodies. She also can be of different sex - and is in many partnerships.
This you must know to be able to get into the real power and merging with yourself and with each other. For a long time you have dominated, in an unredeemed form, your partner, just as his mother him and your mother you. With his passive feminine retreat your active masculine campaign got even bigger. This is an aspect of balance within your partner-aura. Even if he has been a roughhousing husband and you a quiet wife, you still have dominated - in the stillness, out of the underground day by day. So may you both find commonness where you present him your dominance in a redeemed form so that he can grow up into a childish feminine man.
Don't demand from him what you mean to have accomplished for your self, but feel from moment to moment and know that a time lies in front of you where finding your common way will be long enough. So can each of you do their steps and experience the wonders of transformation.
He is "not pushing his masculinity onto you" because it is easier and handy for him, but deep inside he feels that you are bearing the masculine part of this partnership in you and himself the feminine. He is confused through his feelings which he cannot classify, the demand of community, and the conditionings of his upbringing and of the many strings which at the end of time weave your net and let the entanglement seems endless and insoluble. In his masculinity he is resigning which goes under in your presence. Respect his search and don't call it addiction. With this you humble him another time and also you - and tie the knot of your net even tighter instead of loosening it.
8.
Now, you study your bodies, the polarity of your chakras, and your flow of energy in yourself as well with each other and make valuable experiences and discoveries. His erection falls and decreases when you go passive, because passivity is not according to your ground-nature. You are the active part, who absolutely can receive passive but should do this in an inner attitude which doesn't leave the throne of your natural masculine activity. This is deeply not an antagonism.
Of course nothing happens when two energetically "female" or "male" meet each other. When a woman meets a man should be clear that the woman not necessarily is the carrier of the female sexual energy and the man the carrier of the masculine, it also can be the other way round - and this is the case with you both.
The same applies when in homosexual bonding two women or two men get together. The free flow of juice and power, the free play and the climax are only possible when between both partners the polarity of masculine and feminine sexual energy is reining.
9.
If for you both "everything went right", you let your self fall into your masculine and he into his feminine ground-power. The exhaustion the next morning is nothing else than a great healing-crisis of your body and of your vital-energetic flowing streams which activated your entire flowing wholeness in the previous night, a great soul-spiritual power which you have repressed and ignored a life long - is synonymous to torturing your body. It is great muscle soreness after a great free flowing in your body, after a big and necessary dedication of your body onto your soul and your spirit. And here has the sexual happening nothing to do with your partner but it is an act of opening and merging, liberation and fulfilment with and within you.
Your old life-energy wants to die and revive as new. Take your time to let go of old energies which lies in a bundle of pain, anger and entanglement. Stay in bed, care for your self, and dream - forget work and the household. Let bring yourself tender and powerful from the troubled ocean of life, where you fought a life long, to the shores of your body-continent.
10.
These are spiritual ego-plays, which you mustn't take serious.
Of course not only you have a problem, but he also, but both of you are requested to change this problem, which for the time being life has given you, to make LOVE, LIFE, being, calmness, into a deep allowance to your self and towards the other to do and let, what you want.
11.
Indeed, your heart has cried out for help, after this full and crucial opening of your masculine-feminine body-soul-spirit-being - and simultaneously it received this help and embraced it. The right side of your body, the masculine part is in a massive process of opening, which is stopped every now and then through dogma of the ego and at times announces its "icy rejection". The hip stands for shift in direction. And indeed it's time for it - and it comes to pass.
12.
Let your partner completely go, accept him completely! Let him completely go and accept him completely!! Let him completely go and accept him completely!!! Let this letting-go and accepting flow by breathing in and out - fully out of your heart - again and again until he is not anymore your partner, but a MAN, an independent being, a friend, a lover - or a stranger. Dispense the marriage-vow with which the state and the church have sealed your heart, with love out of your heart. Simply if you decide it will happen. Let death, which might part you at the end, become life and love.
Now it is essential for you to accept your bodily and emotional femininity and to live and love it, to accept your male twin-soul and to live and love it and to accept your masculine sexual ground-energy and to live and love it!
For your husband is essential to accept his bodily and emotional masculinity and to live and love it, to accept his feminine twin-soul and to live and love it and to accept his feminine ground-energy and to live and love it!
It is essential to let go of one another and to look about for other partners, to trace for diversification and variety.
Make your decisions and don't require anything from him!
13.
The tongue is the pendant to penis. The French-kiss is the pendant to penetration of the vagina. The French-kiss is the outer act of Spirit and the penetrating of the vagina is the outer sexual act of the Sexus.
Spirit doesn't like to penetrate into Sexus, when Sexus cannot give him something. The unredeemed masculine hardness expresses in the softest, most intimate part of your female body and offers to someone who looks for softness, nourishment and lust, no stimulation. Here also shows that he doesn't want to accept YOUR masculinity.
We thank you very much for your question and information. As you see, it not only took some time to put these things into words, but also give a present to the world with it. This you have achieved.
I AM Isis-Osiris
in deep love and respect towards your path, which you go inwardly and outwardly, in deep respect for all that you feel and decide, do and experience.
I AM Isis-Osiris
at the end of your separated and at the beginning of your common path.
I invite you,
Here and Now to travel in my breath and to open up the remembrance of yourself.
(id - 12.08)
Hein and Ida at the Lichtpunkt
Dance on many weddings
Translation: Zsuzsanna Schrag
1st letterDear Sabine, for 2 months now I'm in the north of India, far away from Bollywood and Tourist centres. A completely new world assailed at me. My friend invited me, I met him 3 years ago in Germany, and he is an Indian. The communication is superb as he learned very good German through me. He had to go back to India.
End of January 08 a cry for help came from him; his parents wanted him to marry an unknown woman, as it is usual here. But he wants to be with me, because he loves me. I also love him, but I still have my doubts if this should be because I much older than him.
Packed my case, flew there and married on 02/14/2008. He has a huge family. But (unfortunately) I don't understand the language. Constantly visitors came to look at me. I feel like a wonder of the world. People old or young stop to look at me, but that's okay. They are all very friendly open and intrigued. Really all are very affectionate. Many people here are just like brothers and sisters to each other.
The readiness to help one another is huge. But they put themselves in debt because of the weddings, where cars, motorbikes, refrigerators and televisions must be given. From October to April are ongoing weddings, because of the cool climate then. Moreover they change their decisions from one second to the other. There barely are rules here, which is okay.
But at the beginning there was a time where I felt endlessly sad and only could cry. He repeatedly said I want you to be happy. I have mixed feelings about: I absolutely want to get pregnant with twins, I have wished this already for 7 years; and then there was this feeling that I'm absolutely out of place in this family because communication is so difficult. They speak so much and so loud.
The food is always the same, very spicy that I cannot taste the vegetables. And then every morning at 4 it drones from all the Sikh-Temples at the same time. The neglect towards animals, partially they treat them very badly. The dirt which is in the streets and seas is indescribable. For one day get all jobless Indian together and then everything is clean.
I had so many ideas to bring about change, but without money many things are not possible. For example Bio-Toilettes before chemistry start. To go into the school to talk with the children and, and, and … People don't care about the dirt. Everyone is throwing it into the streets. Why am I here?
The Sikh-religion is one without great restrictions. It is said that every human is God. The most important thing is love and joy with each other. Here everyone gets food and drink. Men and women are equal.
But what is the point of a scarf and a turban, which every pure Sikh wears and has to be worn in the Temple? What do I bring about?
There is a dog here, which just had puppies and with her I made friends. Everyday I give her food and some cuddling. She is quite happy so. Never before in this life did she receive so much attention and love. Every day a girl group comes to visit me; they are between 9 and 13 years. We talk a little bit in English together. They are happy when I do something with them and me too.
For a long time I was reluctant to marry again. This is the forth time I did this. The 3rd and 4th time men were so much younger. Then I read the message of Seth and have doubts. I really love to be with him. It is beautiful with him. But I back out when I think a younger one would better match to him. I start to grumble. For a time I had a lot to do with my self-worth. Did I transform it? Fear of loss? I thought that I embraced it already?
I feel as a pioneer and love changes. I never stay longer than 1½ years at the same place. I'm full of enthusiasm for new projects but until now I didn't manage to create one in the New Energy. Why is that so?
Sometimes I feel that I hold back with my development. What am I afraid off? I listen to my heart, but I would love to get some profound messages! I look forward to your answer. In love Monica
Left Achilles tendon, left knee and left hip is aching. Yesterday was a day and night that felt like hell. Extreme heat, didn't sleep at all, endless many mosquito bites, ventilator so loud and cold - under the blanket so hot, by day the air conditioner in the car so cold that my right side froze and on the left side I sat in the sun. While a 3 hours car ride (70km) the music was extremely loud so that my ear-drum nearly burst. The whole day I was a visual object for the people.
Everyone wanted to see me. This was stress pure. At the beginning I was rather joyful but on the way back I couldn't care for anything, I just wanted to be at home in bed.
The dirt here is just indescribable, the noise unbearable and the traffic on the road just chaos. It smells here like a cloaca, disgusting. Everyone is blowing the horn constantly. What should I transform here? What discover? What accept and what let go?
And still there are some wonderful and Eden-like places. And funny an Indian seldom goes there. At the moment all trees are so green. The fragrant of the flowers is so intense. I have the feeling that the Indians are at ease with their dirt, mostly those who live in the city. It would be nice to get an answer.
Answer
Dear Monica, Monika and I have read your mail - and shook our heads over so much guts, lust for life and determination. We find that you are doing fine: to confront yourself and the world again and again with surprises, to take the header from the cliff and not knowing if there is water or stones or is it high or deep. You really are doing fine!
You live in high amplitude between joy and pain, between your self and the world. The least people do this. You pitch into the chaos; do things that make "normal" people wonder if you have a screw loose - and we find this ingenious!!
It is not about rescuing, education and cleaning India, but to find YOUR SELF - and if you have chosen this roller coaster like way, there is nothing to say against it. Do not hesitate to do the next step when it is time for it.
In love we are with you where ever you may roam about.
Monika, Sabine and Adamas Saint Germain
2nd letter
Dear Monika, dear Sabine, dear Adamas Saint Germain,
I didn't reckon with such an answer. Rather thought it would be the same as with the others. But I like it. It suits and is me. THANK YOU for the quick answer.
I was almost euphoric and with this beautiful answer I rushed to the next wedding - where I swayed with relish but muted to the music. Everybody stopped doing what they did and looked filled with enthusiasm and rather frightened at the white woman because dancing is reserved only for the family of the young man. It was rather funny. Here I have to keep a lover profile, because women don't do things like that. But as a white woman I take more and more liberties.
Again and again I read your answers because I had my doubts about the way how I'm living but now I'm going on the roller coaster to find my self. I have the feeling to get freer every day and this is fine. There is so much to experience, let's do it ….
To live with all the love from both sides of the light-barrier is very simple. Full of love and connectedness and until the next time, the heartiest regards from Punjab to you all. Monica
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