TOBIAS - JANUARY 2007

8. January 2006 – Cry for help from Lea
Dear Sabine, this mail is connected with the hope that TOBIAS might bring some light into this matter. You did offer that we could write to you.

I plunged into misery. After I attended your Seminar “Transformation of the Body”, I was sure – also after channelling through Brigitte Eisenkirchner that I would enter a new “room” on my birthday 25.12, so to say be renewed, my greatest wish, to coalesce with my higher self and to feel that, a good piece nearer.

But no new room opened. The crystallisation process was completed; our old soul roles were to make place for the new. I practiced the exercise you showed me from Metatron three times. But nothing changed. I have been working consequently for years to become a creator, to create a life of happiness and abundance for myself, but nothing. I gave birth to a sunny boy with a big heart and accompanied him to a loving six year old. And now I am so distressed, that I seriously thought of leaving him, because I think he would have it better everywhere else than with me.

But he does not want that, because he finds that I am the best Mama that he could wish for. But I thought and felt that I would go to Greece or heaven knows where and work as a kitchen help and take care of homeless children. And this emptiness, this sheer desperation still continues. I haven’t used my computer for days, did not listen to the shoud, because I think all this “eso-shit” is all a lot of lies.

I feel like a donkey with a spiritual carrot dangling at distance in front of his nose, so he can keep trotting after it. Fooled, lied to and totally helpless. All hope gone and a big hole in my heart chakra. I thought this feeling oozing out of the heart chakra was “old-time”.

And it hurts, and there is no way out. But running away or suicide is no solution.
Maybe there is an explanation or understanding for this condition.

I hope your health has improved, you workaholic. I wish you a good new year. May your wishes come true.

Answer
Dear Lea, Of course the solution is simple and so close. So how could you find it? Tobias is laughing and happy about your mail. He’s running in top gear and wants to answer in great detail. He’s hopping around like a little boy. But I will also add my “mustard”.

It’s about high time that you stopped worrying about “eso-shit” and “spiritual donkey carrots”. You can only be lied to and fooled if you look in places where you can’t find anything. Everybody is looking, and some claim to have found, even though they are still looking. They offer you their “recipes” and if “it doesn’t work” they say (or you believe) that it’s your fault. In this sense they will all “lie” to you. But this is not their responsibility, but your own. Fact is, that you are looking on the outside what you can only find in yourself, and are therefore lying to yourself.

Your inner strengths are gigantic (your son knows this). But they are also strong enough to knock you down in a short period of time. This seems to be happening right now.

1. Belated best wishes for your meaningful birthday. Your really are a Marien-Christus-Being. I (Sabine) already though so.

2. The higher-selves have actually transcended – without exception. You can notice it by the height of your crisis and desolation.


3. For all of you, this delivery, has the exact effect that you had been preparing yourselves for, for the coalesce. (Your bodies and your spirits).

3a. Some of you experience this time as a flow of tranquil happiness. They are constantly smiling at the rain-cloud; speak to the blackbird in the rowan-berry tree in front of their window. (Sabine for example). To them the Eso-Spirit-Scene is just as meaningless as the question if IT worked/happened or not. They just eliminated the essential inner barricades up till the time of coalesce.

3b. Some experience this coalesce with the Gods as a pure apocalypse, simply because they stored enough apocalyptic energies.

4. Besides that, right now, the demonic forces have been intensified. The grey energies of the world are being cornered more and more. Even the dark zones of earth are starting to absorb the light. During these times the “grey ones” are looking for personalities that radiate strongly, but who are not stable in their crystalline being. They are looking for light-carriers and crystalline-humans, which can still be distressed and are not clear within them.

And if they succeed to distress such humans, their light-force becomes darkened and simultaneously free – and they can extract it and strengthen themselves therewith. This you are experiencing at the moment as well. The result will be exactly visa-versa. They will strengthen you and help you to stabilize yourself and thereby lose on dark ground themselves. They help you to become unshakeable. So stay strong and full of love for yourself and them.

I, Sabine experienced this intensively during the 90’s. Those were two gruesome years, just because I was fearful and did not know what it was all about. Now I am not fearful anymore, as I know what it’s all about and they don’t come to me any more. On the contrary they elude me like the devil the holy water. Pity actually, but non-the-less, your bringing your demons to me now, so that I am able to catch one once in a while and love him to death.

A lot of humans are still collection bins for demons. They love them to, and visa-versa. But in this case the demons control the people. Through such people (and these include a lot of (“Esos and Spiris”) demons try to get near you – to at least get hold of a little portion once a week “snacks” so to say.

You’ll do good showing them the door and your sure to pay a price in “demonic days” like that. They change you into a toad without being aware of it (neither do they). But that is how it happens and the toad is once more on its way to queen or priestess, to king or priest. This of course the demons did not intend, but that is how it works when they meet up with a crystal-human.

5. Here a summoning up of your delicate points: a) Hardness against yourself. b) Unkindness and lack of gentleness towards yourself - resulting in - c) constant orientation towards the outside - engaging yourself for others - therefore expecting the same from (spirit beings) that which only you are capable of creating.

In this sense you have deserted yourself, and breakdown at that exact moment on your strength and hardness – there where the feminine Goddess streams in, just trying to open this solid body a little – trying to bring home those far travelled thoughts - softening the feelings a little - warming up the cooled-down self-love.

Now Ohamah is connecting himself:
You are fighting like a bull and you are fighting real good. You have a firmness of character, are sincere, cultivated and straight-forward. Your eyes are wide open and they see far. Those are qualities, that by God, not many have. You’re a noble warrior, a warrior for light and life. And right here is where the problem lies. LIGHT & LIFE don’t need fights or warriors anymore. They do not have to be forced, because they are there already. So the most capable warrior and fighter do not find his end under the sword of another, but by the ocean of his own tears. Kneel down right there and let your head hang down in total sincerity.

Tobias:
You carry both the masculine Christus-strength and the feminine Marien-strength in equal portions in yourself. Although you have discarded the masculine strength from your “body-life”, it is still blocked because the feminine energy came to short. They can only be whole in free-flow and exchange. Your divine being is feminine and masculine, soft, serene and infinitely loveable. It dances between the being of a lively seven year old girl and mature exalted priestess.

You are both, and you might have forgotten both. Both are needed here and now. Yes that can really hurt. But the biggest pain lies in the battle that you are leading against your God-self. Just stop it. It will take some strong rivers of tears to break-up and wash away those well-built crusts of your earthly life. Spend a lot of time in the bath, drink lots of water, listen to music and just know that IT has happened and that it’s claiming tribute from you now.

Sabine: If you wish I could take you with me into my crystal temple for the next seven days, to help you a little. Nada and Maria are also involved in this answer. They lifted me up when I had reached breaking-point during the same resurrection battle.

Dear Sabine,
Thank you very much for your prompt reply and loveable answer. “So the most capable warrior and fighter do not find his end under the sword of another, but by the ocean of his own tears. Kneel down there and let your head hang down in total sincerity”. Wonderful speech.

I gladly accept your offer to accompany you to your crystalline temple. Yes, I’m hard against myself, although it has improved a lot. Your words console me, as I lack self-love and self-confidence. So I will pick me up and hug myself. In principal I know how it works, as I always succeeded in doing just that with my son. But I think it’s difficult to love oneself.

If we are co-creators and I am unable to create happiness and abundance, then I get mad at myself, because I’m obviously doing something wrong. And than I deny support and be-little myself. Even though I always heightened the support for my son when he was not well. And fear always gets the upper-hand, – to be wrong – not to see – not being able to manage.

Okay I’ll picture myself as a convalescent for one week - without having to do anything – but to just simply be.
I received an inquiry if I could instruct 23 children in harmonic-behaviour. If I receive such a confirmation from the outside, it gives me the feeling that I’m on the right path, even though I have the feeling that I am a healer. But with the children, lots of love flows and healing takes place. I would like to be clairvoyant, and then I could see clearer. Trust is not my thing, as my childhood still knocks loudly on the door.

I have a strong pain in my heart chakra and if I’m at peace with myself I receive electric shocks in my body, especially in my arms and legs.

I would like to know more about the Marien-Christus-Beings. Does it have anything to do with the 13th DNS cord? I am a “coalescent” (Tobias-channel “The 13th cord).

Do I have a certain task to fulfil? Actually I just wanted to “be”, together with others, friendly and relaxed, receiving affection and compassion. Dear Sabine, thanks for being here. With love.

Dear Lea,
Well now! It has arrived. That’s nice. Let me give you a few tips to what you have written.

Self-trust and self-love are forces that we have not installed in our bodies. If you read the X-mas story “The Dance of Life” you will know that we created the exact opposite in our bodies. It’s not just your physical childhood knocking on your door, but also the human evolutionary childhood.

We tore ourselves to pieces, to enable ourselves to love others first – so, at the end, we would be able to love ourselves.

Now Tobias is taking over:
We could say: to love yourselves AGAIN, because you could do it. But in those days, you did not have, nor were you body. It was your goal to embody LOVE, if you can remember. If you discover self-love in yourself TODAY and bring it to life – birth it – it will really be a painful act, that will create something COMPLETEY NEW.

Real self-love is something completely new on your planet, because it is embodied.

In addition, all humans on earth are momentarily going though this birthing process, but only a FEW support this process within themselves. A lot despair over that what they longed for and hide from it. As you are all connected with one-another, these rejected birth-streams from other people will flow to those who need support – to you. And of course you will pick them up, because you love the humans.

For this reason you don’t have to wonder about your toilsome SELF-LOVE-BIRTH situation during these times. You don’t even have to despair. You should just take time for YOURSELF.

Therefore, you are neither wrong, blind nor incapable, but simply “in the last segment” in the row of spiritual birth on earth.

You crystal-humans are going ahead of the others. But then we always told you: don’t wait for the others, go ahead. And now you are experiencing the mystery of CHANGE: Because you have created it, they follow you. And BECAUSE they are following you, your birthing-process will take as long as the last soul on earth has decided to go or stay. And this moment in time is not letting itself being waited on much longer.

You are actually there for everyone. But that you can only be, if you SOLELY TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES.

In this respect, your work with the children is also an aspect of your own SELF-LOVE-BIRTH and that of humanity.

THAT IS HEALING!

Of course you are a healer. You are all healers. But you’ve looked at this notion much too seriously. You believe, to be able to be a healer, there have to be SICK PEOPLE: Exactly for this reason you have this breathless institutionalisation of sickness and health service. No, to be a healer it is adequate enough to be surrounded by embodied angles, which are all, in one way or another, lying in death-convulsions, labour pains or are experiencing undecided coma conditions.

The children of the earth need you more than anyone else does – and they will be quicker THROUGH IT than any adults. Then they will help you build the new earth in such a way, that not even you adult crystal-humans could imagine.

The pains in your heart chakra is the expression of your internal “fight” that your wide, soft spiritual self is having with your hard ego-self, your spiritual openness with your human denseness. It’s the resistances that your lower- self is confronting your higher-self with. Open your heart wide and breath. Decide that things are allowed to develop themselves for the well-being of all - in yourself.

The electric shocks are high spirit-electric flow-streams, which are connecting your present physical body-matter and your old functional circulation and systems to a high functional plane. Your earthly-human nerve- and hormone system is being connected with the spirit-cosmic light-system. This is part of your Self-Love-Birth-Process - and necessary – so that you can become what you wish to be. (Smile): clairvoyant, so you can have a clear view. But don’t take the clairvoyance and the “sight” to seriously.

Well, as were busy doing some explaining: why is it strongest in arms and legs? Because obviously the greatest resistance dominates here.

You remember the sentence from Jesus: “I am the way, the truth and the life”.

Herewith he said: I am Gods spirit in a human body on earth.

“I AM”: is your HEAD and simultaneously: COSMOS, GOD, SPIRIT.

“THE WAY”: are your LEGS and simultaneously: PROGRESSION, DEVELOPMENT, STABILITY.

“THE TRUTH”: are your ARMS and simultaneously: AWARENESS, BELIEFS, DETERMINATION

“LIFE”: is your TORSO and simultaneously: SPACE, TIME, WAY, DUALITY, (FEAR-LOVE, AGRESSION-HAPPINESS, HATE-COMPASSION)

Look what this listing wants to tell you, and do not forget: everything concerns only YOURSELF.

The Marien-Christus-Being is the coalescent feminine-masculine spirit in the body of man. This is the being of the 13th DNS-cord.

Last but not least: Yes, you really have a special task to fulfil, namely, to be together with others – friendly and relaxed, sharing affection and compassion.

Thank you also for your trust, your being. We are with you beloved.
Tobias, Ohamah, Sananda, Nada and Maria and Sabine

Lea:
I could sleep a couple of hours this night and don’t have so much pain anymore. But reading that our birth-process will only be completed when the last soul has gone through their decision-making process really scared me. That could take years. Will I be ill or unstable during this time? How long will my process last if I open up to self-love, take time with myself and take good care of myself?

Tobias:
What’s so terrible about that? The decision-making process is nearly completed. You are not ill because you are going through a collective birthing-process, but because you are not allowing it to take place. The birthing-process is PUR HAPPINESS. And the more beings and people take part in it, the greater your strength, happiness and opening. Times will come when you will mourn for this birthing-process after it has been completed. So enjoy it from the bottom of your heart, so long as it reigns.

Your process lasts so long until it has been completed. If you open for self-love you wont ask - how long - anymore. Because time becomes unimportant.

6. January 2007 Questioner :
Hallo dear Sabine, for years I’ve been busy with consciousness, self-reflection and thought discipline and most of the time I’m balanced and strong. It is my greatest wish to give personality training and seminars. But exactly in this area it came to nothing (or just a little). To make (offensive) advertising according to the old principle didn’t help much in this respect. And to follow my heart (to trust that it will happen when it should) is quite an ordeal for me. For a considerable time now, I have felt heat in my hands and have busied myself with this topic. I practice it on myself. It is my hearts wish to discuss this topic with you, perhaps even as a telephone consultation.
Warm regards…..

Sabine:
The interchange via Email (incl. problem solutions) has proved to be very helpful and sustainable. Describe the aspects that you feel are unredeemed in your life, formulate your questions or insecurities and let us open a discussion that could take a couple weeks, months or just a few days according to when your field opens itself.

The aspects of your childhood could also be very helpful. Now and then we could also telephone, but the written interchange has a more positive effect. By formulating your problem you already have half the solution. And I can give my answers and comments time independently. This is very important for me; as I am at present receiving many questions.

Questioner:
I find it very good that you are challenging me to formulate my problem by writing it down, which also makes me see it clearer. As I stipulated in my first mail, I love to give coaching and seminars but don’t do advertising for them. I am standing in front of a huge blockade that doesn’t let me see what I could do. That means there’s no idea coming from inside of me that makes my heart jump. Today I’m giving a small (4 hour) seminar and I feel the energy that’s flowing to me during preparation and I am in pleasant anticipation. This is an acknowledgement that I’m on the right way. (if only it could take place without advertising!) This is my topic and I would appreciate it if you could help me loosen the knot.

Sabine:
I had a look at your internet page today and received the following impressions: You are a strong personality who has draped a veil in front of her own strength. This veil is called zest-for-life and enthusiasm, but it’s still hiding something. It’s white, not grey, but it is dense which does not enable you to reach other persons or yourself. Take a look at you homepage. You even pictured your veil in the layout. Seminars don’t take place because you don’t advertise but because you are hindering them as you don’t radiate that which is within you, because on the outside you stay in human mediocrity although your inner strength is high-carat.

The questions are:
What are you veiling? Why are you doing it? What can you change?

According to my perception you are veiling pain, guilt, pride and aggression. All these powers are active and powerful in deep unconscious rooms. They are directing your emotions and radiance and only allow you a minimum border crossing. They are keeping you small and meaningless.
In detail: Unsolved emotional wounds which originated in this life or ascended out of old space-times, and which have not been healed, want to be released. But you won’t accept and release them. Pride and guilt are dancing a roundel. According to the situation they change with one-another and act according to their needs. They start to act when you want to go to the outside to show your strength and love to the people. Then you place other people on a higher level and let them sit on your throne, which makes you feel unworthy deep down. There is a little girl that’s scared and wants to be taken by the hand. And there is a mature woman a priestess, whose heart is so filled with love for the people that it overflows, therefore letting the power flow through her hands when the heart is already closed.

The heart is not really closed towards other people but towards yourself, towards your power, strength and responsibility, but also towards the love of your spirit, that would pull the ground from under your feet if you would let it flow freely.

There is a fear for that which you are and that what you would like to be. There are aggressive warrior energies within you that are keeping a powerful light locked up. There are moral Beings within you that accept the light and block the darkness. There is a Being within you that says yes to your structured masculine strength and unites the feminine gentle flowing ones.

Breathe all this out now and have trust in the streams of light and darkness. Risk being immobilized for a few weeks, when the “monster wave” of spiritual love, seizes you and pulls you out of your old life.

Lie down, place your hands on your heart, open it wide and breathe deeply.
Tell your heart that you love it and yourself and that it may take over the leadership of your life as of now.

Place your hands on your abdomen and let the spiritual love of your heart flow into it, into the depth of pain, feelings of inferiority and guilt (which are not only yours but also those of other persons that you absorbed and have not yet relinquished.) Let all streams flow freely. Take time for that.

Place your hands on your head (or comfortably under it) and let the love of the heart flow into the ultimate grounds of human confusion and control so that sincerity and clarity can be reinstated.

If you would like I will take you into my spiritual heart during the next seven days and nights and help you to release all blockades. Most of them are ancient and deeply rooted, but we can release them. Give me a short written allowance.

Other than that I recommend the checklist “Redeem your own Dark” to you that I put in the net today under the link INTERNET-SEMINAR. Besides that you will find helpful written and spoken texts (look under CHRISTMAS PRESENTS). Concern yourself with this material for a while and let spirit work in you.

Questioner:
You managed it that I burst into tears; all I could do was cry and sob. Every word is true and I’ve know this for quite a while. A dear acquaintance suggested the exercise to me, that I should place my hands in sequence on the chakras.

I refused to do this exercise even though I was aware of its significance. One day the desire was so great that I did it. I’ve been doing it every day now for a week. Yes dear Sabine please help me release my blockades, I can’t manage it alone.

A lot has happened during the last five years in my life, (ups and downs) often not knowing who I am. But I always know what I would like to be and what I long for. In one word: Love. I’ve occupied myself with the texts on your Homepage for quite a while (but also with other books) There is nothing more gratifying for me. Your reply was a wonderful Sunday gift for me, thank you.

Sabine:
I already saw your tears flooding while writing. Let them flow no matter how long it takes. It’s (at present) just as powerful as you yourself are. Let the power of the tears flow so the power of love that lies behind them can be set free.

The love that you are longing for is not the love that you RECEIVE but the love that you GIVE. This must be clear to you. The pain within us is always pulsating love NOT being able to give and its bigger then the pain missing love from the outside.

I would like to help you release the blockades and will take you into my crystalline love-rooms during the next 7 days and nights.

5.11.2006
Questioner:
While lying in bed yesterday and today (an attack of pain that I know, but have never experienced so violently) I ask myself the (first) question. Why do you mention the Alpha-Omega breathing in Booklet 7, September 2007 as significant, whereas you suggested the heart-breathing to me? I did not do the A-O breathing only the “deep-in-the-stomach-breathing that Ohamah suggested. Other than that I was just centred in the heart – without connecting anything with it.

And because I sometimes have to have a precise answer, I will describe shortly how I understood it and practice it: the contraction I experience intensively and concentrated so that the point starts to glow, and while expanding this glowing light radiates over the earth, while I keep the consciousness of “I am here and now wholly in my Self” and hold it.

My second question: You wrote about the drawing up of the earth-darkness and the drawing down of light, streams that meet in the heart and are changed there. That describes clearly what happens: the moving of energy. Up to what extent does it still concern us?

And the third question, to which I have answers, but would like to have extended with your insight, is: there are quite evidently also different heights/depths under Shaumbra, why? I can’t understand that it might only be due to the different levels of development. Could it be that some have less to resolve or are there also forerunners under Shaumbra?
Warm regards.

7.11.2006 Answer:
To your first question:
The topic BREATH is a vast area that we are slowly only now beginning to feel out and use. The basis for understanding is the Life-Cross. The Alpha-Omega breath stabilizes you between Heaven and Earth (Spirit and Body). This stabilization of the vertical branch of your Life-Cross is the basis of power: the complete balance of a human angel between spirit-room and body-room, between Heaven and Earth. It is the Soul-breath within the threefold breath.

The “Crystal-Breath” is the representation of your own crystalline presence on earth, which has redeemed both branches of the Cross and no longer tosses to and fro between darkness and light. Here you have arrived in the centre of the Cross and your being, enlivening it and spreading it out. It is the next level after A-O-Breath.

To the second question:
When this point of oneness in your own centre has been reached, it no longer concerns us. Then we live, breathe and love for all other people and Beings. Our aura starts getting bigger the more we merge in our own oneness and wholeness. With your loving Will (or your willing love) you can wrap the terrestrial globe in your heart-light. This ability is basically a question- and result of Self-dignity, Self-esteem and of Self-love.

To the third question:
All “suggestions” which you made are right in their own way. But the basic point is: for a lot of people it is still difficult to understand that high spiritual Beings (Masters) don’t only come to Earth as advanced- leading- and spiritual persons but also as tramps, handicapped, fools and even as murderers.

One of the last obstacles for spiritual persons is to accept the so called dumb, cumbersome and bad as a choice, that a Being (maybe even they themselves) made. Also through that it can help others to open their eyes, the heart the mind and to let Deh un Gnost flow freely.

Its less the different heights and depths in the stages of development of Shaumbra but rather wisdom and love that are also concealed in the darkness behind hundreds of masks of plainness, naivety right up to violence. In the heart they are all the same and: LOVE


28. November 2006
Here the answers are placed midway through the text of the questioner:

Question:
Dear Sabine, I have just made a new discovery: the possibility of a distance-healing-technique concerning sexual stigmata and imbalance, for example for ancestors and also persons that we know. You described it as interaction between healer and warrior, illustrated as a sketch. Have I really understood that correctly, that I should imagine it internally, thus adopting this position with the other and then letting everything else happen as described?

Answer:
Yes

Question:
That the opening of the warrior is a conscious act irritated me – as there is his darkness.

Answer:
If you as a healer do this meditation, your opening and devotion for the warrior will open him and it will flow by itself – thus far that it complies with the approval of his sub- and higher consciousness.

Question:
Other than that, if I “do” distance healing, then it is always an offer from my side which can be accepted or not.

Answer:
That’s exactly how it is in this case as well.

Question:
So I don’t have to ask on a conscious level every time - I can do it without conscious knowledge – always for the highest good of all-that-is. But here with this sitting position and exchange it concerns the conscious giving of the warrior – this is unclear to me.

Answer:
It only concerns the conscious giving of the warrior if he’s ready for it. This is seldom the case. This meditation is like all others, an opening and love that you perform within you for the benefit of one or many. And it is not only the warrior energy that starts flowing, but also always your own. Because also the healer still has unredeemed warrior energies in himself.

Question:
I find it very special that there is something available which refers to sexual imbalances – especially as a spiritual possibility. But what I find rather strange is to use a sitting position with a grandmother married man or ones own brother that is usually practiced by lovers.

Answer:
There are a hundred possibilities to work with sexual imbalances. This intimate position is one of them. The crystalline heart is another and the alpha-omega breath a third. You could also place your hands on the back of the head and the coccygeal bone and let the streams flow (in your own consciousness of the crystal-spirit) and so forth. This “lover” position is not only suitable for lovers but for all humans and Beings. The greatest power of this position is that it can redeem your fears, your being closed-up, your unaffectedness and your lack of imagination. Sexual imbalance has very little to do with lovers, but a great deal with the darkened warrior- and healer-beings within you.

Question:
Sometimes I ask myself if this heart-breathing is all that is necessary to continue the process in a natural and light way. No more standard-cell, correspondent etc. just choose the highest potential daily and this breathing. That suits me fine, because it’s the easiest. I mean if I always feel like it, its one thing, but when something is inevitable it would be wonderful if it’s made as easy as possible – at least for me.

Answer:
Exactly, the easier it is for you, the easier the streams will flow and are therefore more powerful and effective. This refers to you and the rest of the “world”. And everybody has their very own tool for healing their changing-plan and their own power.

Question:
Other than that I feel rather queer. I don’t know what else to say, because I can’t pin-point it. It reminds me of the period between 98/99, when I bled for months - was here but yet somewhere else. But that isn’t the point either – empty, unhappy (lust less) – then a spark out of the blue. I ask myself: Oh how can I manage, “it’s unbearable” and then comes: It’s absolutely nothing, its tomfoolery. Actually I really only want to know – where do I stand and when do I eventually reach the deep end?

Answer:
The deep-end you’ve already left behind you. You should relax and rest here and now – and allow all streams to flow freely.

11. January 2007

Here are only four of many questions ….. and a few answers:

Re. Health Insurance
There are various reasons why I don’t agree with the states healthcare system. Now I’m confronted with the decision if I should do without a healthcare insurance completely. Is this the right time to make this decision?

Answer:
It’s not a question of the right time, but a question of your inner attitude that you need to free yourself out of this gigantic net of collective responsibility for your own life. Don’t underestimate a state collective being that has such power. You have to bring up all your strength for your own self-support is you want to release yourself out of this social net.

These are less financial and organisational powers but more emotional, mental powers, fields of thick grey sticky energies through which you have to wander once you have released yourself. By releasing yourself from this system you ascend from “creature” to “creator” and in future you will have to carry all responsibility for prosperity and adversity yourself. Is that what you really want?

You can compare this with the thick, dark zone of fear that you light-workers, human angels and crystal humans are leaving during these times – and a lot feel how it shakes them up once more.

You have to be deeply convinced within you to take this step. You have to deeply accept everything and go through everything after making this decision. That is why we will not tell you if the moment is right. The moment is always right when you really intent to do this. Then you won’t ask others for their opinion. Listen inside you, in your heart. Then take the step when everything says YES within you.

Re. Independency
I’m standing resp. lying in the start-holes – and am not moving.
What is it that is hindering me to start?

Answer:
It’s the indecision that flashes up in your first question. You are standing in the start-holes looking for the “man with the whistle” so you can start sprinting. But there is no man and certainly no whistle.

Listen deep within you and decide if you want to start running, or if you prefer to take a nap – which we really advise.

Re. Place of Residence
Is it advisable for me – also in connection with my new independent occupation to change my place of residence? For quite a while it’s been drawing me towards northern Germany, but I lack a concrete starting point. Is this just an evasive move from my side, or an indication that it might be a good idea to pull up the stakes here, settle somewhere (but where?) in northern Germany and start anew.

Answer:
Yes, of course it’s an evasive manoeuvre! Your ego is eluding your divine spirit and acts as an activist. This is appropriate if you do not allow the expansion of your spiritual self in your body.

Whatever you decide to do is appropriate. But it’s also appropriated for us, to tell you that you’re beating about the bush. We honour you for doing this. It is your own personal way of temporary self-rejection.

But allow us to point out to you: the bush you’re beating around, is you life-volcano. And it’s going to erupt soon. Let it erupt now. Open yourself and forget planning and thinking for a while. We are with you and are sending our love in your life-fire so it may change into a spiritual blaze and bring forth crystalline light real soon. And for heavens sake – take time for this eruption.

Re. Companionship with Others
On the one hand I have a great need for autonomy and like to retreat. But the idea to live in an easy-going community with others and to “celebrate” life also appeals to me. But where are the people with whom this might work?

Or is this a time where everybody should consciously pull through their “own thing”?

Answer:
Indeed, at present everybody is pulling through their own “love-spirit-birth-thing”. Forget the easy-going community for a while and allow your “love-spirit-thing” to open you from the inside. Only a few on Earth have an inkling of what CELEBRATION really means.

Re. Extremes
I’m obviously prone to extremes. Either I have a job that occupies me day and night – or I flee into unemployment to recuperate.
I either fast – which I haven’t succeeded to do for a while – or I eat for three!
I’m either very sociable or every second person on the forest hiking trail is too much for me….
There are many more examples.
I don’t want to blame everything on the double Scorpio. Is there help for more balance?
An early reply will oblige (especially the first point, healthcare insurance, bears no delay)

Answer:
You are prone to extremes because you are an extreme type. That is wonderful. Exactly these types we need on earth. You connect the outer poles with each other and don’t get lost somewhere in the middle (moderateness). You connect worlds and opposites with each other. That concerns a lot of you and that’s good even if other persons certify this as “instability” or similar.

However you have to watch out now. Especially you hyper-actives need time of rest and of change. This time is now. Take it. Leave the start-holes; forget insurance and new places of residence for a while. And forget that there is something on this planet that “bears no delay”.
We are with you. We are Tobias and Maria.

12. January 2007

Dear Sabine, I have a matter of personal concern and would be very glad and relieved if you could help me with it.

I passed through my transformation process relatively good last year, but now for approx 3-4 weeks I have been very tired, listless, frustrated and resigned. I don't like this anymore and if it weren't for my four children I would have said farewell to this planet already.

Externally there is no direct reason for this, neither anything that triggered it off. It's just that I have the feeling that everything is too much for me and I see no perspective. I know there is a perspective but I can't feel it. My zest- and love for life, of which I normally have a lot, is gone and I have no idea if I will ever find it again.


Answer:
BECAUSE you coped with your transformation process so well during the last years, you have now arrived at a threshold (better: a gate) that allows you access into rooms that are completely strange to you. You have, like all of us, wandered through "layers of collective fear" thus reaching an "alien room". It is a galactic room that is indeed totally new to all of us. That is why here and now we have no orientation.

In this sense you have actually said farewell to this planet and have landed on "the New One". What affects you at the moment is not of a personal-individual nature, but of a cosmic-galactic nature. Your old zest for life changes into a new one. In between there is NOTHING for a while, indeed.


Question:
In addition to that, I am separated from my husband, and I feel "separated". Meaning, it grieves me being alone. After I was prepared to enter into a deeper relationship with a friend, with whom I've had a relationship for a number of years, the contact suddenly broke off. And I don't really know why as he just doesn't contact me anymore. Of course I know about his blockades and fears and would like to talk to him about them, but he evades nearness. We also wanted to work together.

Answer:
Not his blockades and fears separated you, but your spiritual intention to create an independent and true life within yourself before getting involved in a new life-, love- and business relationship. Read the text "Feminine Masculine Wholeness" under "Tobias at Kristallmensch". The topic applies to you.


Question:
As I was much occupied with myself the last couple of months, I managed quite well, but now I'm suffering and miss this friend a lot. If I review my life, I get the feeling that I was always alone and had to manage to much alone. There is such a strong longing, more now than ever before and I just don't know how to cope with it. I don't feel like being consoled or being put off till a later date. I've had enough.

I've been underway with this topic for quite a while; Santo - that's his name - is the second man with whom I've had this experience. I've occupied myself a lot with this, "worked" on it, but now I don't want to work on that any longer either. Can you help me? Hearty greetings.

Answer:
Nobody is consoling you or putting if off till later, but yourself. Look inside your heart and find out what is REALLY IMPORTANT now.

Just stop working on your life-, business-, and love relationships. Just simply stop working, rest and start enjoying your lives and YOURSELVES. We are with you, with love,

Hearty greetings to you as well

Sabine

14. January 2007

Here Adamus – St. Germain gives his….hmmm… “answers”, midway through the question at the appropriate place. And he is….in a surge of emotion.

Dear Sabine
Just short…at present I am confronted with various sicknesses from people in my nearby vicinity and of acquaintances where the school medicine can’t help, resp. want to operate and of course each time my inner-self calls, surely I could help them before they must be operated on… then I get doubts… I ask my pendulum, but am still doubtful when I receive a YES… my sister has bleeding problems and depression and told me that she will have to have her uterus taken out. The pendulum tells me I cannot help (its always like that because she doesn’t believe in it) Where my father who has prostate cancer is concerned, he told me recently that he has agreed to an operation in February – here the pendulum told me that I could help… and there is another acquaintance of my parents who has a cyst in his back which the doctors cant even heal with expensive injections…

St. Germain:
Oh yes, you love taking care of others, especially those who don’t want it. You do it to be able to let your own things lie. We would like to remind you that you have to learn to let people go their own ways and to even let them die, if they decided that for themselves. If you don’t leave your earthly fingers from the others you will perish with them.

You attach your inability to SEE to your blindness. You kneed your fear for change in their horror. You mix your helplessness with their veils of receiving rejection. Forgive this outburst but I have faith that it is my last and maybe most effective way WITH LOVE to put fire under your and all the others bottom!

…if I truly believe that I can help them, I have to ask them it I can help, and then they will expect that it will help, and I don’t really know if I can really help or not… I can’t say to my father: I’ll treat you before you go under the scalpel, have another x-ray made of your prostate to see if it worked.

St. Germain:
You DON’T really believe that it will function that you can help them. There are two reasons: Firstly you don’t believe in YOURSELF, so it can’t function. Secondly you don’t believe that they want that kind of help, which is really true. These two grey NO-Beings in you make you incapable of acting and let you drift for ages in grey rooms without doors and windows – together with all of the others.

And something else happens: The doubt towards yourself overshadows all of them and darkens the whole situation. With that you only make it worse than it already is. You have to get out of there. How?

Quite simple, by deciding to let them live their lives (or die), by letting them go, coming back to yourself and by strengthening your heart light. Take a deep breath and connect yourself with the crystalline spirit within you. Simply by deciding to do it, it will happen. Allow your crystal spirit to be inside of you and to expand itself. And finally you expand together into the world.

Your crystalline SELF-BREATH will brush their lives, pass through it and enlighten the grey aura of these sick “blind” humans to such an extent, that they themselves will make conscious decisions for or against their lives.

At the present moment neither you nor they are able to make decisions and are incapable of acting. This will change soon.

… every time I hear of people with bodily problems I get my calling (???) which twitters, “but you can do something there”… but at the same time there’s doubt that I am most probably not ready… or something like that … I just simply WANT to help.

St. Germain:
Your calling is: LIVE YOURSELF!!! Let it twitter, howl and rumble. Ignore it! LIVE! dammit!!!
LOVE YOURSELF!

Just by doing that you help these people in a way that is incomprehensible to you. Indeed.

Solely therein, the question clears itself, whether you REALLY want to help or if your “helpers-syndrome with backfire” is just a thick grey-white veil that is hiding something else - maybe fear, guilt or aggressive self-control and self-denial, or everything together.

Be truthful with yourselves, it is of vital importance during these times!

Withdraw yourselves from the world, just for a while, and allow us to have access to you. We would like to help you “helpers” tidy up and clear the view, indeed.

…dear Sabine…what should I do?? Would I be capable of treating, or is it better at present (if yes, how long?) to do nothing in this way? At least it’s doing something inside of me… yesterday my cat brought on a weeping attack and this week I already cried myself to sleep …I try to look at it positively, that something is “moving” inside of me.

Here…St. Germain… is still answering and it IS positive. Cats stand for FEMININE SOUVERINITY and ROYAL DIGNITY. You (and a lot of you) made a decision in a spiritual poverty vow, to extract your feminine Self out of the Life-breath. Your cat is helping you to flood-out the terrible helplessness that derived through it, to free the feminine Being, the true HEALER.

Forget the others for a while. Kneel at the dark ocean of your life and cry until you have no more tears. One day you will lift your head and notice that your ocean is shimmering and radiating in crystalline depth. The shimmering expresses your released feminine spirit-strength and the radiating your masculine.

Then – and only then, beloved Being – stand up and help the others. Then you will know what to do – and then you CAN do it.

…well, it wasn’t that short, but I think the answer won’t be that long, smile*. I am sending you a basket full of wonderful colourful spring flowers, with love.

We send you our love and honest offer for true assistance. If you REALLY want it, breathe deeply and let us into your life. I am with you
I AM Adamus
I AM St. Germain

(23.8.07)

15. January 2007
This is not an inquiry, but a message for us that we deem worthy to make accessible to you. Open your heart while reading it and allow this New Room to open up in your life.

Yes the time is nearly ripe.

According to my perception the energy has changed completely. At the turn of the year, when I at first simply felt the intensity and fierceness, I now notice that everything wants to fall of off me. A completely New Room lies in front of me and at the same time a part of me is already in it.

In this Room nothing applies that was of significance before, also in the sense of explanations, solutions, goals etc., regardless how spiritual and true they might have been up till 31.12. I don’t feel that a superordinated goal is given to those who have entered the Room and those who will still enter.

Ultimately it was always the superordinated goals that our explanations and interpretations (our spiritual courage to face life) orientated themselves. All this was important and still is for those who are not yet standing on the threshold to this Room.

Now everything is losing itself, dissolving, can’t be grasped and doesn’t even exist as the past any longer, because it is only an illusion under a lot of endless phenomena that I (you) ascribed the truth to for a long time.

What still has meaning? What can happen? Is there still a purpose? No, there is no more purpose, and cause and effect don’t grip anymore in this Room.

I am satisfied with this situation. I feel greater peace and greater calmness then ever before.

Besides, I’ve put on weight (was a very thin Being). If this is due to the New Room or to the fact that I’ve been munching since Christmas, or both, I don’t really know. But at the moment I don’t really know what to do with the world around me. And so at present I still love staying in my bed, the nicest place on earth for me at the moment.

18.01.2007

Dear Sabine, I sitting here, want to write to you and don’t know how to start. I feel the blockade and breathe it out. Earlier on I ask myself – why do I keep the people away from me, what is it? I felt into it and a deep sadness overcame me, which I breathed out, then waves of sadness kept coming up from deep down.

I long for people, but not just because they don’t come to my Seminars, most of the time they just stay away from me (including my family). Often I confront them but notice that they do not want that. Even the people that are working on their self-realization, from whom I thought that we could interchange interests, I experience the same thing.

It’s as thou everyone has an axe to grind in his own quite little room. I think it would be very fructifying if like-minded people could speak about their problems.

While writing this I feel how it shakes me up. What do think Sabine, will this ever change? Please write and tell me what impression you have regarding this. It does me the world of good to read what you have written.

Dear…., here is a Sister from the spiritual realms that wants to give you an answer.

Beloved Being, your whole life you spend with like-minded people, the life on earth and also the life in spirit. Only in the times of transgression, that of death and that of birth you are alone.

This is a time of death for you. Your old SELF is dying and with it all hopes and disappointments, all expectations, all abyssal fears, aggressions and ambushes. Let this SELF die, cry with it and for it. It indeed hurts deeply. But allow it.

This is also a time of birth for you. Your I AM is being born, your divine Self is coming to earth and coalesces with you in your body. And this is also painful, for a period of time, indeed.

During this time your very personal apocalypse and Crystal-Body-Process reigns. The fires of pain of Earth and the love-fire of Spirit whirl through these days of your life. Let pain and love pass through you, and feel, how little they differ from another.

Withdraw from the world during this process of death and birth and be WHOLLY BY YOUR-SELF. You cannot expect anything from them and neither them from you. A lot of them are like you, secure in their cocoon, in which the earth-caterpillar becomes a cosmic butterfly.

But know this, before you withdraw in yourself: when all have left you, then we are at your side. We love you deeply and watch over you. We are Nada and Maria.”

And I am Sabine, and in this sense connected with you.
My love to you.

Dear Sabine,
I have neither received an answer nor a comment from you, therefore I don’t know whether or not you have received my mail, or if I am just partaking in a written monologue.

Dearest…….., you are standing at the top of my list. No you are not partaking in a written monologue, but they too can be very salutary. During the last seven days I have been struck by a “work tsunami” and don’t know where the beginning or end is. I read your letters and absorbed them – you – in myself.

Therefore I could do what was necessary and appropriate – which I then did - . I let my crystalline heart-strength stream into your life-rooms and lifted the grey veils to the extent that your higher-self would allow.

In between I took a look at you on the inner realms and saw that you are already in a “releasing-process” This letter confirms it. Let me give you some advice that I will place directly into your text.

Letter:
Nevertheless, my pain that comes in intervals and threatens to devour me, occupies me more than the reunion with my darkness (death) and the unsolved rage over all exploitations as well as self-exploitation patterns.

Sabine:
And exactly this pain is a sure sign that the old dense energy patterns and habits are being released in your body and vital-energetic-rooms. The intervals comply with the planetary breathing-out and the capacity of that which you are able to bear. Your bear a lot, but then you have a lot to bear. I’ll make you a friendly offer: Send the biggest part to me. I am able to let it pass through me, without letting it wear me down, as much as it would wear you down.

Letter:
I feel like I am made out of an infested gum (always biting on it) – everybody knows this pain, it’s awful. It feels like my soul is oozing and my heart with all its wounds is bleeding again. I just can’t do anything then, except wait until it passes.

Sabine:
That is indeed so: you have to wait till it passes.
But you can do a lot.

a) Pass some over to me.
b) Accept the pain wholeheartedly (that electrifies the body structure and makes it easier for the pain to leave the body).
c) Recognize that you have let your soul ooze and your heart bleed. Here and now they have just stopped it. That means: LAND AHEAD.
d) Open yourself wide, breathe deeply and let all streams flow freely. It will be good.

Letter:
Nothing has changed much on the outside. I am still hanging between the dimensions and the only solution that I have found to overcome my lethargy, is to get myself a cat. I love cats; it’s so good for me when they purr. Oh I miss that so much since I don’t have a cat anymore. But I am also in doubt about getting one because of my dog. I also have doubt that it will complicate my life. What am I going to do with the cat if I have seminars or want to travel? I suppose behind all this lies the question of security and independence.

Unfortunately I have the same doubts concerning my job. Should I apply for the vacant job at the welfare office and risk being accepted (or rejected), or should I continue with the therapy sessions (that don’t convince me at the moment).Which means: do I advertise and wait for clients???. No idea, no motivation, nothing – that’s it.

Sabine:
Imagine: Your body is lying on the operating table in a cosmic clinic. Your head has been screwed off and is lying beside it. (The doctors will tend to it later). They are just busy setting your body in such a high oscillation that the earthly misery is being catapulted out of it. (These dark essences of your “way” are being collected in a most loveable way and are poured into a golden grail. The harvest will be extracted out of it at a later stage. Some beings are busy releasing old wiring out of your central nervous system and are rewiring it, and behind your left shoulder a being is standing that is leading silvery-golden light-energy onto your thymus gland.

Well, that with the head was just a joke, its still on. But it is also in a stage of being re-formed. How on earth do you want to make plans now and organize pets, job offers and therapy sessions? Forget it. If you survive this operation – and I have no doubt that you will – the world will look much different then before.

You are looking much different then you did before and will see things differently. Rest; do yourself some good, look after yourself. That is all that is left for you to do in this death-birth-process. It is indeed strenuous, hardly bearable and anything else than spiritual, because it is a combination of healing crisis, apocalypse, light-body-process and ascension an enormous project within you, which you should truthfully make room for.

Letter:
Who am I, what do I still want ….. I have no idea. Everything seems dissolved and frayed-out, like the wool of a sweater that was once new , but is now lying “moth-balled” in a corner, meaningless, without purpose, (a vegetable).

Sabine:
A divine condition during this time!!

Letter:
The job might even interest me. But I fear these “tic-toc” people in this “tic-toc system that I would then be entwined into. And with my immense need for sleep, I might oversleep in the morning and get fired pretty soon, or get burned-out and exhausted.

Sabine:
When the time is ripe, rather decide to get fired and then carry on with your work in a different loveable, self-determined way (we’ll talk about this when the time is ripe). If you behave and stay in bed, (or go to a cinema, into the countryside or into the “white”) you will never again be as exhausted as you are at this moment.

Letter:
I know that you work a lot. I am a thankful reader of your articles and circular letters, but it would make me very happy to receive an answer.

Sabine:
Yes, I am so hard working it can make you cry. I could burn-out to if I were still capable of doing that. But that can’t happen anymore. Take time, and when you’re “though” with it, there will be lot to do.

Mother Mary answers

This is a continuation of the conversation we had under the title “A Bucket full of Evil”.

22.01.2007

Thank you for your answer Sabine.
I am trying to pass on a part of my burden to you for healing and transformation. Sometimes I feel like I am carrying the misery of the world on my shoulders, as well as that of other people, especially that of the violated women that I have been trying to help for a number of years (It’s just too much for me alone)

For the last four years I have been getting pains in phases behind my left shoulder. Is that my blocked heart chakra?

I want to be able to laugh again. I used to be such a happy person, even though my humour is dry, sarcastic and very British. Not always accepted or approved of by the Swiss. Well, the Swiss and I, or I and the Swiss… that is another unsolved problem.

Anyway a hearty thanks for your answer and I also hope to live through this.

At least I made it till here. I cleared a lot of my karma as well as that of others.
(Frayed-out sweater????). Let me give you some of my “fat- and sleep –emergency reserves”
You might need them more than I do.
My hearty thanks to you.

Sabine:
These are not your burdens, but just burdens. A possessive-pronoun is binding you to the burden. Stop using the word “mine” in connection with negative things.
Don’t try it, just DO it. Just decide that I should overtake them and let them go wholeheartedly. Then they will flow out.
You are only carrying the misery on your shoulders that you chose (unconsciously).

Mary is connecting now:
That tortured feminine being that received and gave during a lifetime, without asking who was to blame.

Beloved being,
The topic violence is a comprehensive one that we will be working with soon in the Kristallmensch-SEMINAR. But beforehand, let this flow into your heart: not only women are affected by violence but also men. The victim and the perpetrator principal are present in each of you – directly in your heart: in the left (light) and the right (dark) chamber of your human life.

You suffer when you open your heart to only one of the poles (here the victim) and to only one gender (here the women) and keep it locked for the other pole.

This internal posture splits your heart: the right heart chamber and the ascending vain-flow (also the spleen and the lymph, half of the liver, kidneys and lungs) they leave the active rooms of your life and go back into a nearby-life-dimension. Therefore they can only work on the lowest level and your body gets sluggish and unclean. The heart becomes weak and the pancreas overworks. All rivers of your life, the river of happiness and that of abundance will eventually get clogged and dry up.

Through this you are violating yourselves. You become sick, bitter and eventually die without having achieved anything. And in your next earthly life you are confronted with the same situation and problem.

Every man who assaults or violates a woman, or even kills her, does this because he himself is full of pain and death. He received a lot of his feelings of pain and death from the mothers and grandmothers of his own family. He is driven and cannot act differently as long as he does not find redemption.

I am mother Mary and I beg you (and all of you) at this point: redeem your heart and your bodies, your life and your happiness, by accepting the perpetrator and the men, as well as the victim and the women. It is not easy for you, but it is your own truth.

By opening your crystalline heart chamber for the perpetrator, you heal the victim.

By giving the men your crystalline love, the women will be safe.

By releasing guilt and redemption out of your life, your hearts will heal.

Let your crystalline floods of COMPASSION stream to ALL beings.

Crystalline love is an enormous spiritual healing stream with great “changing-powers” – unbelievable for all of you. It is inside of you. Let it flow – just let it flow.

It will change the face of the earth rapidly.

Breathe deeply and release everything that you overtook from other people. Simply by deciding to do so it will happen.

You are not just an amusing person, but a wonderful loving strong personality. Very dry and British, which means, very masculine and charismatic, but in a feminine body. Let this coalescent being ascend and truly live!
I am Mary and I am with you.

And here is Sabine again:
Yes, you can send me your “fat reserves”. I don’t really need them at the moment, but I know what to do with them….

My love to you, and all of you

...and Self Rejection

11. December 2006
Dear Sabine, hearty greetings. After my son had severe car accident about 8 years ago, I spent a lot of time at his bedside giving him energy. Since then I have red/blue streams under my skin that start at my left ankle and run up to my knee. Towards evening the skin is often partly swollen up to the knee. It has defied all help up till now to get well. During this time I broke through a large emotional pattern. Giving assistance meant more to me then my job as an independent businesswoman. I wanted to be with him even though I couldn’t do a lot for him externally, but I could help him internally and spiritually. This pattern breaks through once in a while, but all in all I live from the heart.

26. January 2007

Sabine:
Nobody had to wait as long as you did for an answer. Usually we say everything comes at the right time, but none the less, please accept my apologies. Here is my advice for you that I will fit in to the corresponding text passages.

Before starting please note: While making my statement it could happen that one of the spiritual Beings intercept and take over. I don’t know this beforehand. I have a very deep relationship to Sananda, but I can’t just call him and ask for an answer. I have to take the matter into my own hands first, with the intention of completing it. Then it could suddenly happen that one of them flows in and takes over. This principle also refers to you and all other people who are “on their way”, as we are no longer being led, but have become leaders ourselves. If we have not been able to accept this, we are at least independent thinkers, feelers and going our way.

And now that we have reached the topic, let us interpret the anatomy and occurrences: Feet stand for standing, walking steadfastness, going by yourself and so forth, but also for intimate contact with the earth: Compassion (you are standing in the dust of the world) and load-capacity (they are carrying the burden of your life).

Left stands for your spiritual interests on earth, the left lower leg for spiritual development and constancy.

The area between foot and knee is the most averted from spirit. It can go its own Ego-ways for a long time without harmonising with spirit. That was good, because we left spirit to discover something new. In the meantime the direction has been reversed; we are going forward, but nevertheless back to spirit. Long-drawn-out and obstinate symptoms appearing in this area are showing you that you are dawdling to a great extent on your way back “home”.

The “Heel of Achilles” gives indication of great inner masculine warrior strength, but on the other hand, lethal injury at this point as it comes into contact with its feminine counter strength. Exactly this is happening world-wide now. The feminine and masculine spiritual poles are flowing towards each other and are fighting at that point of the blockade for an opening.

Eight years ago you were in a spiritual life-phase that demanded the total detachment from all your familiar earthly duties, attachments and delegations. As counter strength to this inner decision, as a temptation so to say, your son (who is spiritually not YOUR son anymore) had the accident. He (the accident) bound you (your Ego that doesn’t want to let-go) to his (your son’s) bed. So you took over his symptoms into your corresponding body-rooms.

You delegated part of your masculine strength to him, so you could “be-mother” him (which was inappropriate). This weakened the balance between these spiritual poles once more. He created this accident to place a stop and resting phase in his life, so he could be alone and find back to himself. You neither allowed this, nor your own retreat and change. That is double foreign control, overlapping, energy stealing and spiritual ignorance, towards you and towards him. This was dramatic enough to create such symptoms.

You stabbed your foot like spear into the ground of his life. That is why it hurts on the side and not underneath it. That is why the pressure of your shoes eases the pain.

Red/blue is the change of the earthly consciousness and blood (red) into spiritual consciousness and blood (blue). This abnormality shows itself in your body when spiritual fusion is not allowed, so that here to an abnormality reigns. Red/blue also stands for feminine – masculine.

Continuation of letter:
Here is some personal data: Born 1951. Since 86 inner way. From 91 to 94 self-healing from severe strokes of fate and physical ailments. Self determined life as a creator for approx. 2 to 3 years. I am happy in my heart when I do what my soul wants and there is still a lot to be done.

Sabine:
Exactly, stretch the happiness of your heart down onto your feet, but please not on your earthly feet with the aim of making them beautiful again, but on your spiritual feet giving them the permission to walk wherever they to want to. This means, leave your body the way it is, release it from the pressure of having to be different. It is under pressure enough from your soul and spirit.

Continuation of letter:
I hope you can understand the following: Of course it is my motivation to have a beautiful foot. During the summer I have to wear special stockings, trousers or long dresses, with the result that people are always asking “what’s the matter with you”. I don’t have any pain, but since about three weeks now, my heel has been aching, regardless of whether I sit, stand or lie down and all the more when I walk. I’ve worn orgon-stockings for a number of years now. I am not acidic, but something is just not flowing like it should. Something cannot flow, so that the stored deposits cannot be transported. None of the external means have helped.

Sabine:
It is an internal problem that you can only solve internally.

Letter:
I now plead for help from the spiritual world- preferably from Sananda or Ramtha.

Sabine:
Why of all Beings are you asking for these two, (the loving and the warrior, the feminine and the masculine) and why do you want to contact them through me? Here your self-rejection continues and that they will not allow. That is the reason why they do not contact you. They are watching the scenery and have no intention of supporting your Ego. Be Self. Go by yourself. Communicate yourself. You can do it. Allow this stream to break forth. Allow the energies of Sananda and Ramtha to flow into your life. Allow yourself to receive them. They, as well as your own divine spirit insist on your independence.

Regardless of that, if you permit I will take care of you in my crystal heart during the next seven days and see what I can do for you.

Letter:
Dear Sabine – thank you and hearty greetings – what may I give you for your help?

Sabine:
You can find my account numbers in various places under Kristallmensch. Use them according to your liking.

Translation: Marion Lüdtke

First letter
After I made the decision to take a look at my dark side, I noticed (through the list) that the experience with my sexuality is my darkness.

There is deep sadness within me. I’m crying now while writing about it, maybe that’s why I suppressed it. This sadness is like a dark cloud.

Since then I sleep a lot. My dreams are very intensive but I can’t remember most of them.

In one dream I lost a piece of my ring finger (got cut off). During my wakening stage I have a numb feeling in this finger, like I had an electric shock. In most of my dreams I am looking for my son. I’m on the street trying to get home because I’m late, but there are neither taxis or busses and I wake up sweating.

In my every day life I have become calmer and I do a lot of observing. I had the following experience on the street. A man was scolding about “shitty” foreigners. From my side there was no reaction. I felt empty, felt neither anger nor rage. I felt absolutely nothing. I’m a calm observer without feelings. Is that okay? I feel so “different”. But it’s okay!
I’d like to accept your Seminar offer from 21.01. It would be great if there was an interchange in a Kristallmensch chat. I’m not so good in writing but miss the interchange with others very much. Dear Sabine, thank you that I can write to you.

Second letter
Dear Sabine, the warrior within me declared war yesterday. I’m living on the extreme situation/identification again. One minute I’m everything divine”, - the compassionate at peace with everything and breathing, the next minute I’m the unsatisfied, ravenous and self hating.
I can’t bear this anymore; don’t want to have anything to do with this ascension shit.
-then I read the seminar protocols and suddenly realise
-the feeling, the certainty in this feeling that every participant is a part of me
-the certainty that I’m not the mask “fatma”, but that I’m “playing” the fatma
And after two hours the warrior fatma is back again scolding with my child.
Do you understand me? You said – if you really want to, you will find back to yourself!
I want to! But how can I accomplish it that the fatma with the sword would also want it? Or, what can I do to make her go?
I have just read the Seminar of February 6th. I understood that if I’m in the here and now the warrior will have no room to romp about in.
I have never lived the “now”. I always lived the lives of others, that is why I always though everything was so difficult for me and persuaded myself that I cannot do it.
-I’m unworthy is another one of my points.
Thank you, that I could transmit this to you. Thank you for leaving me the time.
My present lecture: I’m. in the “now”! My love to you.

Answer
I ask myself if your first letter is still relevant, because I see a big opening taking place within you, which today’s mail confirms. Let me say a few words regarding this:

During this time when the earth is going through a gigantic electromagnetic change and the poles are exchanging energies (north becomes south and visa-versa – meaning: darkness becomes light and visa-versa) you as single beings are defenceless against these currents, raging and changes, especially if you have not developed your inner-most stability.

Many of the things that are going through you have little or nothing to do with you. These are collective waves of old energies being extruded with the simultaneous intrusion of completely new galactic energies, bringing redemption and peace, wanting to redeem themselves, but while crossing over, rage just as severely as the old warrior energies. The energies of pain, abuse and mourning of other people are flowing to you and other light carriers, whose light hangs high enough. That’s what it does.

If you don’t want to have anything to do with this “ascension shit” as you call it, then just decide to be at peace with all aspects of your present life, which I must admit are hard to bear and very changeable. There is nothing in you that you should reject or fight. It is the “planetary breathing out” that is bringing you to the edge of your strength and past it.

We will handle this topic in Lecture 2 in the Kristallmensch-seminar. You will understand a lot once you have read it.

Observe yourself without prejudice. Realise that you really have a transpersonal reception of yourself, which is a natural condition in the higher realms. Everything is fine. Enormous vast and wonderful worlds are opening. It is only the old agony “death-cramp” and the new birthing pain.

Just stop fighting and look lovingly after yourself and all warriors and naggers within you. Do not reject anything and just let all negative things flow past without letting then shake you.

Stabilise yourself during relaxation. During these times it is going to be much more turbulent on earth then it already is. This does not have to have any effect on you if you take good care of yourself.

Don’t speak about “YOUR” shadows, but just of “shadows”. That will pass if you don’t hold onto them.

If you have no objection I will take you into my crystal heart-chamber during the next seven days and blow away a couple of dark veils, okay?

Sabine

Dear Sabine,
I have a terrible problem: In a book I read a lot about forming of your own reality. The author wrote, e.g. that if a mother always imagines that her child is being murdered she would thus manifest it, and give rise to it. This clamped into my heart and soul like two toothed wheels.

At the time my son is on outing with his class and I’m desperately trying to think of something nice, not trying to visualise terrible pictures – with doubtful results!! It is very difficult to “not” think of something, that touches you from the bottom of your heart.

To this I must say that my light-body-process is in full go, and that I’m periodically absolutely happy and that I feel my bright light with great joy. Since yesterday I let my hand be led (there seem to be a few amusing beings, that are allowing themselves some tomfoolery with me) as I ask for spiritual help, begging to be told who there was in the net who could help me, I was led to you.

Please tell me that I am unable to manifest something as terrible as mentioned above.

Tobias answers in deep love and compassion regarding your present situation and that of a lot of other people as well:

Collective waves of horror and fear are ascending at the moment out of the emotional rooms of humanity and are passing through you, you who have come far in your light-body-process. Your divine spirit wanted you to read this book and attach at this point.

This topic “DEATH and LIFE” needs a fundamental revision in your consciousness. We will be handling this soon in “Kristallmensch-SEMINAR”.

Whenever a person dies his divine spirit has arranged this and made it possible. The meetings between perpetrator and victim are always arranged and accepted encounters that were agreed to in the spiritual rooms – for the good of all – even if it is not plausible to you at the moment.

And of course: these encounters, that seem horrendous in your outside world, are lead and carried by endless love, because the true death-power that can loosen the soul out of the body is LOVE. Death, irrelevant in which earthly association he appears, brings the beloved being with one gigantic electric LOVE-SHOCK back home.

He only appears when all parties and instances of both participants (perpetrator and victim) have agreed. And at that moment, perpetrator and victim do not exist anymore, but only brothers and sisters:”Love in Light” and “Light in the dark” – help once asked for and now granted. Because the return to the spiritual rooms is a holy ceremony, as is the leaving of this homeland.

And no man is chosen without a good reason by his divine spirit for this JUDAS-Service and “made” into a victim.

Now why of all things is this wave going through you?
Because your divine spirit has decided that in this TRANSIT-TRAFFIC of “victim-and-perpetrator-horror” to clear your own life-rooms, thus leading you on a higher sphere, that ascends out of duality.

Simultaneously you are taking large waves of this energy, out of the old humanity with you into the light – in loving breath – in the breath of love. You transcended your ancient fears and that of a lot of other people and thereby clean a great part of the collective emotional bodies of humanity.

This is “healing through Christus”, through YOUR CRYSTAL-CONSCIOUSNESS.

As long as you are not conscious of these correlations, this ACT of healing will be bound in fear and pain. But through your inner knowledge, by knowing what is REALLY happening, you can eliminate it over a period of time.

Deep “COMPASSION” with the “perpetrator” and total ACCEPTANCE for the decision of the “victims” are crystalline powers that will lift you and all others out of “fear-love”, “guilt-redemption” and out of the believe in “coincidence, fate and the unaccountable.

At this moment be aware of the raising of your being and accept it. Let IT happen. Let this horror flow willingly through you, just as you did with the beautiful amusing tomfoolery of your spiritual world.

Your son is safe, no matter what happens.

Accept it!
I am with you. I am Tobias.

…. or rebellious spirit?

Spiritual mother and rebellious daughter – an everyday “drama “

(Names have been changed; the question text has not been revised)

Hallo Sabine,
I can’t handle the course of events that are happening with Eva, the therapists, and the child-welfare any longer. Absurd – crazy – is expressing it mildly. Inside myself I know and feel that everything is ok as it is, even though I get attacked from all sides, including Eva. Everything that I say or do is always wrong and gets used against me. My human consciousness reacts in strong waves to this and sometimes I cannot bear it.

Neither do I understand Eva’s motivation – on the one hand I see the necessity of her carrying her consciousness into psychiatry, child-welfare and similar institutions – on the other hand she’s taken over the whole section with her behaviour. Living together with her has become impossible. There are times she is so clear in our life-space, times where she is so much better, but I cant cope with it anymore, knowing that she occasionally gives preference to pain, torturing and sorrow. We are living in a time were this doesn’t have to be chosen anymore. This knowledge, transformation through Eva and having to watch her “drown” catapults me from one corner to another.

I can hardly bear it anymore. I didn’t have the possibility to get out of what has been taking place for a long time. Maybe I didn’t stop soon enough and let her go too late – could be – My motivation in accompanying children was always love. Now I’ve found a clearing-point in myself and told Eva, the hospital and the child-welfare that I’m not partaking in this absurd game any longer.

Now they accuse me of giving her up. I should continue to accompany her and so forth. Believe me Sabine this can’t continue in this was. Eva is 18 in October – Anne her sister said to me a few days ago. “Mama I would have thrown her out a long time ago. I don’t think I would have accepted her absurd behaviour”

One thing I at least managed, even if it doesn’t coincide with polite conventions: I didn’t care less about their opinion me being mad, and wrote things, like, get your ass moving and telling them that they are completely incompetent.

How do I handle this further? On the one hand I have to watch the total destruction that Eva is going into voluntarily; on the other hand I get accused for doing nothing and being a break shoe that’s hindering Eva’s life. In the meantime Eva’s life consist of” breaking-off” hoping to “make it” if a new possibility occurs – then breaking-off, then hope and so forth. It’s a cycle she can’t get out of. And with the help of psychiatry, child-welfare and others falls deeper into it, pulling it behind her.

I can’t stand this situation any longer. I know that she’s responsible for her own life, but I also know that the children did not come to me to decline. But it’s also the time we don’t have to choose this sorrow anymore.

My “ghosts” tell me, what I am feeling is ok. But I’ve reached a point were I think I’m “nuts”. During my work with people, I see all this shit coming out and see how Eva is going right into it. My system rebels and gets me to the point where it always knocks me down. It’s very tiring and wears me down.

When I read the answers on your site these last couple of days, I got the impulse to contact you and ask for your support to transform this “shit”, because it’s so tiring and I’m so fed-up and would like to have a good night sleep.

St. Germain answers you with compassion and a clarity that might seem hard, but yet its love.

You write dear sister, that you don’t have to choose pain and sorrow in these times anymore, which is correct. But if you don’t have to choose them anymore, it does not mean that you are not allowed to, or should not choose them.

Both your daughters are the pan scales of the scale that you represent as mother of this family, increasing the weight as their father and their own parents left them. Both reflect with the depth and height on your scale your primary unbalance. They polarise and reveal your inner being this way.

While the one has taken over your released aspects and acts as godfather for them in the new time, the other overtook your unreleased blocked aspects and acts as godfather for them for the old times.
If you step out of yourself and transfer the observation of yourself over to them, you will discover, that you will find your own electric moments in Anne, the loosened and being loosened , and in Eve your own magnetic moments, the hidden veils and unreleased strengths.

But it’s the separation between these two poles (a gorge and wall) that causes you pain. One of the poles you respect as “real” not so the other.

When you say the basics for accompanying children has always been LOVE, we say to you: The way that Eva goes is also LOVE. And the service that she renders to you and to the world is LOVE, a LOVE that is not accepted in such a form in your world.

The stronger this LOVE, with its concealed wisdom is rejected, the more she will gnaw and bore on the fundaments of your split being – until you surrender, let-go and accept what you yourselves have split and hurled away.

Eva confronts you with this splitting of the heart drastically, without both of you realising it – and yet it happens. Let us take a look what her service to you entails in detail – to you who have made an enormous progress in the light.

Spiritual maturity exits when - you are WHOLE within YOURSELF, are one with light and dark, in full acceptance and compassion for all that is.

Spiritual maturity exists when - you give to those who ask, but don’t give to those who don’t ask.

Spiritual maturity exists when - you respect those who accept your nourishment as well as those who don’t. And if you have compassion with them it should be free of pity, degrading and deep inner doubt regarding their way and choice. True compassion is full of sincerity, respect and esteem.

Spiritual maturity exists - and this is no doubt a higher form of maturity – when you have left the human ancient ground behind you. When the happy and painful aspects of your environment, the rising and falling energies, can neither heighten nor degrade your oscillations – then your crystalline being is in total balance and radiates over everything.

Eva is showing you the cleft that exists between your old worlds, of fighting, misbelieve and hurling between the dimensions and your new world of crystalline being, that cuts off your way from the one side of life to the other as well as to yourself and the people that you work with.

An ancient guilt-redemption-syndrome has loosened itself out of the claws of Catholicism, but the roots grip deep into your ethical human feelings. Actually Eva is leaning up against a bulwark of guilt, redemption and damnation, that is completely strange to her and yet very threatening. The roots of the old vow and syndrome are profusely overgrown with self-authorization.

But this is a delusion, so long as you don’t allow the last change to take place, so long as you stay in a spiritual clench and want to decide for yourselves what’s light and what’s dark, so long as you keep the banners ”GOOD and BAD” raised. At the ultimate point of your change you don’t want to let loose of that which you should let-go, namely – EVERYTHING – your whole life, feeling, thinking, observation and consciousness of the old time – your own human identity.

You have actually gone a long way and come a long way. You’ve released a lot of the old and build lots new. And exactly for this reason you have reached the ultimate point of coalesce of the poles. But you shrink from this, and with your narrow mindedness of LIGHT and LOVE you spiritualise and cover-up the transformation.

So your own spirit being will lean-up against you, against the bulwark of the fortress that built the ego on earth. Your God-self has two possibilities to manage this: the inner and the outer:

By infecting you with disease, or penetrating your fortress, by leaving sorrow and degrading, it can bring you to the same realization as over the outside way, because people and situations will degrade you and bring you down on your knees, so that you can give your ego-powers the demanded sacrifice.

Eva is in you. If she where not, she would be –a) not in your life, or, - b) she would develop differently, or, -c) it would not hurt you. You can’t see to it that the outer Eva makes others decisions. You can only recognize the Eva in yourself, be aware of her and accept her with love.

Through this, all your resonate energies of your split self and you spiritual blindness, that accepted light as good and dark as bad will be redeemed – and your radiance, your feelings, words and deeds will change to such an extent, that EVA with her way of life will no longer be attached to you. She will also either change, or leave your mutual grounds.

The stronger your inner light becomes, the stronger your outer strength becomes, so long as you keep you inner light away from your inner dark. You will have to unite in your heart that which is split on the outside, before the outside can unite. You are not only the scale to which both pan-scales are attached but also the little tongue on the scale, that decides over growth and destruction. At the moment there exists a magnetic fight between you, that she cannot end, but only you can – but not on the outside, only in yourself.

Herewith we come to a further point of responsibility: The psychiatry, the whole human race is your own creation. And so you will be confronted with this creation at the end of your duality, which evolved out of yourself and is now striving to get back – towards reunion.

Know this: Not only those who suffer have wounds, but also those who spread suffering. Not only the meek have wounds, but also the strong, not only the victim but also the perpetrator. Not only do the clever wolves have wounds but also the meek lambs. And can you really differentiate wolves from lambs, weak from strong, victim from perpetrator? Can you really? And don’t they change roles with their next breath and show a different face? In which of these groups do you want to integrate Eva and into which group the psychiatrists – and which group yourself….?

Are you so simple-minded, to love the one and not the other?

Love them ALL – without exception

Let love flow through the wounds of ALL – without exception. This will free you from that which is binding you.

Everything is in order, so it is: During these times massive dark waves of the old collective misbelieves are pulsating through the hearts of the luminous people and simultaneously new galactic energies are streaming in over the second chakra, into the new earth. These two qualities are standing – apparently – incompatible across from each other.

But it’s really a space-timely rousing, that could not develop itself before because your strength could not have withstood it, and will not develop itself at a later stage because it is really not necessary. Open yourself here and now and recognise the gorge, the cleft, the wall in yourself, which stands between the old and the new, dark and light, wisdom and insanity.

Allow these walls to crumble in their ancient ground and fundament, and free their wisdom, so that the insanity of the old world and the wisdom of the new world may flow together, lifting your being on a new level.

And one day you will know that you have nobody else but EVA, to thank for this decisive cut of your crystal. We love and honour you deeply.

I love and honour you deeply
I am with you
I am St. Germain

Here you get only the Answer:
According to your wishes we will not publish your question. But you will have to accept, that we will place our answer in the net, because this is really a highly relevant topic for many people.

An erotic encounter with disembodied beings, that you had in your intensive – we say translucid- dream, is a “normal situation” now days. Of course there is always a “first time”, like in your body-life, and it is just as disrupting, strange and wonderful. It tears you out of your old virginity and pulls you into new spheres of your life.

The expected dual-soul is not so much a spiritual partner (they can, by the way, change from night to night – in the spiritual world monogamy-marriage does not exist) abut a disembodied part of your self – the masculine and feminine counterpart of your reincarnated soul.

There are a lot of couples that have spread themselves over two dimensions, which means: One partner is embodied while the other is not – either because he/she “died” or because he/she has not yet been born.

The time to meet each other has now matured for a lot of you. You have prepared yourselves on earth alone up till now, so that you can move on together.

An out-off-body relationship and coalesce leads you into further rooms of your own entirety and inner peace, thus ending the search for the “true” partner. In addition, these intimate encounters with the spiritual beings lead you into new rooms of awareness and communication, guiltlessness and happiness, self-empowerment and self-remembrance.

We will also be handling this topic in the Kristallmensch-SEMINAR.

Enjoy these encounters, accept them and allow yourselves to open your earthly awareness for these spiritual rooms more and more.

The disembodied beings cannot come much closer to you without losing themselves in the thickness of the earths plain. But you can go closer towards them without losing yourselves in the vastness of the cosmos.

We honour you in your anonymity.
And so, for once, we are staying anonymous as well – together with you.

31. January 2007

Dear Sabine and Co.! I am ever so thankful for your services, eternally thankful, to you and all your
participators.

My question: I have two children (ages 2 and 4) that are sick with neurodermitis, asthma and allergies. It has become better, but I always have to keep close watch over everything in this world. This poisoned world is not the best place for them. How can I help them or support them, so that these severe attacks can be stopped?

They both got neurodermitis after birth and a year later bronchitis, this became chronicle and then asthma attacks came. I lit a lot under the limitations and being different. – “I was powerless”.

Both children were planned from the bottom of our hearts. During my first pregnancy we moved into my grandfathers’ house because he had to go in a “home”. We renovated a lot. Doctors and non-medical practitioners said it’s not from that, but that it might be hereditary. I am allergic to things in nature, pollen, animals, cats, dogs, fruit, vegetable, mould and dust.

With my husband it was love at first sight. But after both daughters became sick I didn’t even have a glance left for him anymore and neither for me. The sickness has weakened “externally”. But is still lying on the lurch so to say. Through the children I found back to God, and to myself. They helped me to give a lot – under psychological pains.

I thought children were my fulfilment, but I became sick children and that was hard. Maybe they came to me so that I could discover my healer qualities or so! But I don’t really know my place in this world. I’m a peace-torch.

Well, I don’t know the reason why my children came to us with such burdens. It completely threw me of course.

My love to you dear Sabine, and thank you for taking the trouble to help us all!!!!!!!
PS: Sorry, forgot something.

Since the children have arrived in our lives our marriage has gotten a crack and I think I haven’t cried out the inner pain for the past four years. Can you help me cry? All that old stuff has to get out – like at a winter sale -.


St. Germain answers
in deep love to you and all the other:

The secret of your life – a Mysterium – exists therein, that you always, only meet yourselves in the old terrestrial space. You meet up with yourselves in many different faces, forms, persons and natures.

And precisely these outer faces, forms, persons and natures will create your problems, - through the contact that they have with you-, but you have to release these problems yourselves. This belongs to your collective growth, with which you have dissociated yourselves from your spiritual home and are now approaching it again.

Nothing can affect you from the outside if it does not resonate with that which you carry inside yourself. Everything that you attract from the outside resonates with you internally, and exactly for this reason it disrupts you.

It’s always the (obvious) problem that another person “triggers-off” in you, or brings into your life, that is identical with your (hidden) problem, that wants to get out at the exact time of confrontation.

What another does to you externally is the same that your ego (with its tyrannical thoughts and fearful emotions) does to your soul. Therefore every confrontation and providence of fate on the outside is nothing else but the setting free of your soul and your inner spirit.

This especially concerns your families, for example, the relationship between you and your children, when they “create problems” for you, - as you call it-.

You are actually creating these problems yourselves, and your children (or other persons) are helping you to recognise them. If they are aggressive towards you, they reflect your own ego that goes into battle against your own soul. Externally they are just expressing (very offensive and directly) what is happening in your inner being (deeply hidden and subtle).

What your ego is doing to your souls radiates over to the souls of your children, as they are soul-beings. What you do not notice, they feel with a high sensitivity. They are the geiger counters of your buried and undetonated bombs. So they will fight, with all means, with their combined ego-, soul- and strength of mind, against the imprisonment of the soul. If you imprison your soul, you automatically do the same to the souls of your children.

When your children are sick, especially at a young age, then they are tools for your own blocked energies. They let flow “freely” what you don’t let flow “freely”. Then they do not fight against your ego, but for your soul. They overtake the residue of old and current feelings – and thought-poison, with which your ego has been over-coated, into their own bodies and pass it out. Whatever lingers in your bodies breaks out in theirs.

In an active warlike form the children work against your, in the passive healing form they work together with you. But in both instances it concerns the liberation of your own soul.

All this happens subconsciously, but is being made conscious to you now, so that you may accept it and BREATHE it out. This is a very extensive topic of humanity that we will approach with first steps in lecture 3 of the Kristallmensch-Seminars.

JUST BREATHE IT OUT.
In love I am with you
St. Germain

All allergies, all life negating powers, all dissonances with other people are surfacing and are NOW being washed out of your life. It is a collective purification process. Allow this to happen.

Read the STATUS QUO in KRISTALLMENSCH (under WELCOME). There you will find the collective background to your problem. By TOBIAS under (Spiritual Rebel) you will also find something concerning this topic, as well as in lecture 3, that is appearing this weekend.

In love I am with you and will help you through this. Sabine.